Reply To: When did you realize you were a cuckold

I enjoy masturbating to cuckold porn. It’s definitely my favorite thing to watch snd masturbate to. I try to find cuckold porn videos featuring a mature blonde wife (like my own wife) so I can imagine it’s her being used by so many different men.
My own wife claims to be not at all interested in sex with other men, but she does enjoy flirting with guys when I am there.
Initially I was jealous and confused. Confused because although i was jealous and a little angry at her flirting, everytime I saw her do it, i got an erection.
Eventually I realized that i wanted her to do more than just flirt. Much more.
But when i broached the subject of her taking lovers while I remained faithful to her she must have thought there was a catch because she always refused. However I found out some time ago that she had paid a visit to an old boyfriend of hers AND that one of my good friends had made out with her – with my permission and encouragement- several times. She has never told me about this, i found out from my friend and other people.
I asked her, in a round about way, if she had ever gone with other men she coukd tell me and I would not be angry and would in fact be supportive and encouraging. But she just laughs it off and claims to be completely innocent.
I get so turned on that I know she has cheated on me with other men, but am desperate to have her confess to it or to invite me to watch or join in.
I think that if I actually saw her with another guys cock in her mouth or pussy, i would ejaculate in my pants instantly.
I have encouraged friends of mine to try their luck with her when i am not around. One guy, an old friend of ours who i know she thinks of as “cute”, is coming to visit us for a couple of nights in mid January. I have green lighted him to try his luck. I will do my best to give him lots of opportunities by either being out of the way or pretending to be asleep so my wife can slip off to his room to be pleasured.