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I am happy that I found this thread here. I have read a lot of what Luvr wrote about the submissive dynamics in a Cuckold relationship, and I have learned that in a lot of ways I my crave it. As I would like to watch my wife with another man, I would like him to have a larger penis than mine, and I would like her to be more satisfied with that sexual experience then she typically is with our love making.

Until I read some of this information, I wouldn’t have associated these traits with submission.

I however have no ambition to give up sex with my wife entirely, (though at this point our sex life is intermittent at best) and I do not want to be chastised, or humiliate in any extreme way.

My wife and I broke up for a few months very early in our relationship (about 15 years ago). While she was away she had a brief relationship with another guy. When she came back to me we discussed in detail her sexual encounters. She detailed everything. It turned out that the guy had a much larger penis than I. And he had in fact ipregnated her, though at that point we didn’t know for sure it wasn’t mine. (she later had an abortion).

When she told me about it it turned me on emencely. I continued to ask questions until she got annoyed with me.

I found after that I would fantasize about her having sex with him and others. It started to influence the pornography I enjoyed.

After a couple years we decided to have a family. We tried for a couple years with no luck, and I found out I was not capable of fathering a child.

At this point I found the idea of sharing her with other men even more attractive. So in 2004 I approached her with my perversion. She was upset by the thought and we left it at that for a few weeks.

One night we got drunk and had some good raunchy sex and she started roll playing about involving another guy. Needless to say, we had AMAZING sex. The next day when I attempted to discuss it, she was ashamed and embarrassed and refused to discuss it.

Over the years since, this has been a part of our sex life. It has progressed to be very graphic and get us both very turned on. Unfortunately, it has never progressed any further. She is afraid to move forward.

We are now in our late thirties and our sex life has really slowed. We have sex between 1 and three times a month, and often it is just routine, as Lovr would call masturbating using her. But sometimes we still have great sex.

I need to make some changes. I am not satisfied with our sexuality at all. She says she just isn’t interested in sex any more. I know she could be quite sexual if we managed to light the fire.

I’m not sure if this is a question or a confession. But it’s my story in a nut shell.

Exxciteus