Reply To: 'Something new'

Hello Gary,

Yes, I am getting there. Clearly I am going to have to share her, and I do understand that I cannot deny my wife the pleasures of another lover. I accept that. She is autonomous, her needs are more important than mine because I cannot provide for them, because I am inadequate. I am also submissive to her in sexual. She is not really asking for my permission, C is taking me on a journey. As ever she is in control. I am fundamentally deeply grateful because it seems that C is not planning to leave me. She knows that I will get used to her taking a lover or lovers, that I will not cause a fuss, that in the end I will probably be very happy for her and make it as good an experience as I can.

I absolutely love and desire my wife, so the idea that we are not sexual at all is deeply, overwhelmingly fighting for me. I accept that C might not want to fuck me when she is seeing a lover, but I will die if she denies me physical contact – kissing, cuddling, touching, holding hands, pressing our bodies together, my little turgid penis, gently pressed to her warm body wrapped in a nightdress. C might not want to fuck me, but that physical intimacy I cannot survive without. I’d rather be castrated.

I do think I will eventually get to a time where I can speak openly to friends, family and even the kids about C and her lovers. I’d love to be that settled and confident. If C is happily ficking other men or women, but coming home to me… that is perfect.