Reply To: Am I a good cuckold?

I so appreciate that you take the time to respond to me and provide guidance. It is the primary reason I joined this site as I needed a sounding board for where my head was and is and how I feel. Guys like you who take the time to help guys like me are incredible, so I thank you. It helps me think through my feelings and self-doubt. I guess I feel like I am damaged somehow from the trauma I experienced with my first wife’s cheating on me. It was truly devastating and to make it worse, my wife purposely got herself pregnant by her lover. It would have been one thing if she ended up pregnant by her lover, as that does happen and I am sure there are guys raising kids that they did not father, but my wife and her lover planned her pregnancy. That hurt even more then her taking another guy’s cock in her cunt.

So I am cautious I guess. But in my present situation, everything is out in the open. My new wife fucks another guy, I know it, I see it and I initiated it. I know my wife loves me (yes there is still self-doubt, but that is my problem) and we are very committed to each other. My wife does not seem to want to talk about the sex with him, and maybe she does not want to hurt me by telling me how she feels about him (it is her ex husband).

I do not think I want anything in this cuckold relationship to stop. My wife sucking his cock is part of sex. She has sucked mine, not that often and not like she sucks his cock, so there is nothing wrong with her sucking him. It is my problem or the more I think about, maybe I want those feelings as it shows I still am a “normal” husband, that I should not want my wife having sex with another guy. But deep down, I am a cuckold, love being a cuckold.

A psychologist probably would probably say I am fucked up, but if being this ways is fucked up, then I love being fucked up.