Reply To: devastating sense of guilt

I think that cuckolding, for those who truly live it, can be a deep form of intimacy and trust. It’s not just about desire, but about a different way of loving — one where honesty and mutual consent become the foundation of everything.

In my case, though, what happened didn’t have that kind of clarity. It happened quietly, driven by a need I didn’t have the courage to confess. And now, looking back, I feel that I should have talked to my husband first, opened myself to him completely, before giving myself to someone else.

It pains me to think that he might suffer upon knowing this, because it wasn’t a lack of love. It was a search for warmth, for presence — for that feeling of being truly filled, not only in the body but deep inside, in the soul, where the need to feel alive is born.

And yet, I believe that a man who truly loves his woman, even if his body no longer responds as it once did, can find peace in seeing her smile again.

Perhaps this is the truest heart of this experience: the joy of seeing one’s partner happy, fulfilled, alive. A kind of love that is not measured by possession, but by the freedom to give and to let go.