Re: Understanding Myself As A Cuckold

Just know that I feel the same way. I hate myself sometimes for feeling this way and wonder how did this happen. I love the thought of her getting more pleasure than I could ever give her, love the thought of telling her lover how much better he is than me. We were a very normal couple (whatever that is) for many years and now I have fallen into the rabbit hole. As much as I enjoy this I do not want anyone else to know. I want her to take a lover, make me refer to him as Master, humiliate me in front of her. I find it in some ways embarrassing but at the same time it is the most exciting thing sexually that I have ever thought about. To think of how my wife will feel when she sees me on my knees with my mouth stretched around her lovers cock, him making me beg to suck it, making me tell him I would rather have his cock than her pussy. I cannot help but wonder if she will lose all respect for me.