Re: Denial

Hey Steve,

Yes – she told me she’d spent sometime in the chatroom and was pleasantly surprised at just how nice everyone was. She giggled and said that it helped to hear others tell her what we’re doing isn’t so crazy and that others share the same thoughts and arousals. I had seen your post yesterday and asked her last night if she knew everything she was posting was out in the public forum – her reply was “so is your thread where you posted all of this from your side” and she said that while she’d probably come back to the chatroom, that she’d respect my privacy and thoughts in this thread. She said she’d read the first few lines and that she felt guilty because she realized that I’d been working up the courage to accept my desires and that she didn’t want to pry into my head.

We’ve been talking more and she’s still, I believe, looking for continual assurances that I like what we’re doing. I told her again that denying myself sharing the most intimate moment of pleasure with her is something that, for some reason, turns me on. When we’re having sex together and I think that her lover will cum in her freely while I choose to use a condom with her – I can’t explain it fully but is incredibly satisfying to feel myself cum at that thoughts of that moment.

She’s told me that when we have sex bare – that when she can feel me cumming in her, that it spurs her to float into yet another orgasm herself and that she can feel her body spasming as she feels the warmth from me spreading inside her. She then looked at me and said “I only feel that with Robert now you know…..” and wanted me to be sure I understood just what I am giving up with her. I told her the fact that she wants that moment and experience with him only makes me hornier about it. And I joked with her that come Christmas to New Years when she’s said we will go bare again, I told her that she’d better be ready… lol.

Steve