Re: In praise of Emily

We’re driving back from sleezey Joe’s bar (my pseudonym) and agree that it has exactly the right sultry, indulgent, run down atmosphere for the foursome date. The bartender never took his eyes off Emily and she asked in a whisper whether she should lead him on. She would give him a hand job if that was what i wanted. The scene is really getting to her, she is a little minx, a vamp, who is so aware of what’s between her pretty thighs. This is such a shock for some girls, that they can feel this way about their pussy. It is as if their world has shifted focus somehow and they are amazed at how they can use it to rule some men but how it turn compels them to respond to a bull. The sociologist would described it as sexualisation, seeing issues increasingly through the lens of sexual pleasure. Emily isn’t strange in this sensitisation. She, like others, is shocked by the deliciousness of surrender, that she is not completely and always in charge of her body. Instincts are being given a greater rein. Women pre hotwife-hood guess that this will happen, and that they could ruin their marriage if they don’t keep level headed about it. A woman’s capacity for lust, is greater than she dare ambit.

On the way back we discuss James. She admits that seeing his craving for humiliation both excites and terrifies her. She always sensed that he needed to be dominated, but the degree of this is breathtaking. She revisits the scene earlier that evening. ‘Did you see how he just stared as you took me. He gawped at us and then dropped his head. It was as if he suddenly remembered his shortfalls.’

‘Did you like fucking in front of him?’
‘Yes…yes I did. I liked it that what he had done for me drew that response in you. I liked that his reward for shaving me was yet more denial, more horrible comparisons between what you did and he couldn’t.’
‘Its odd isn’t it. Fucking you in front of him could have seemed a reward…something that he should have waited for. But it wasn’t that really. He had to wait and long and dream some more.’
‘I’m going to make him go without for the whole fortnight. That’s the right way isn’t it?’
‘Yes. But he may slide again. You may have to keep reminding him to obey you.’

Emily snuggles against me, wrapping her arm around mine. She whispers…

‘Do you like me being a bitch to him, does that light your fire?’
‘Sure does babe’
‘I can’t believe that the same pleases all three of us. He needs to be humiliated, you need me to dominate him and I need to be a bitch.’
‘It’s ever been thus..just few people talk about it.’

‘You know I will understand if you want to fuck Margaret as well…I know that you are boss.’
‘No need for that..I centred on you. I like her at your heel, doing as you say, but there’s others such as Ben to loosen the woman up.’
‘But I will do as you say…’
‘I know..that’s sweet. It is. But right now we have things to build, and they centre on you and James. I don’t want this to be a few months thing, a dirty thrill that you can’t handle or sustain.’
‘It won’t be darling…I promise you.’
‘I want us to work bit by bit on this, to train James well so that you can be public about using him.’
‘That would be so sexy…’
‘Margaret is one thing, but having a few close friends who know that I bed you and James treats me as cock of the nest.’
‘That would be so sexy wouldn’t it! I want my girlfriends to know. I want them to feel envious of me.’
‘Some could get catty’
‘That’s their problem isn’t it. I think they will be so inquisitive. You wait and see.’