Re: In praise of Emily

I’m posting this retrospectively-looking back over the weekend. To be frank, I thought, it’s time to stop this thread. You’ve nothing to share, nothing to teach, save that this bull at least is fallible. The weekend was a mire despite what Mags said. I kept thinking of Emily in Duncan’s arms, smiling and laughing. I saw her with his friends and yes, jealousy gnawed away at my insides. I cursed myself for getting emotionally attached, for seeing this as more than sex. Alright, I know, cuckold sex is inside the head as well as the bedroom, but there are bits of your head, as a bull that it shouldn’t reach. Truth be told I wasn’t thinking too much then about James and what the outcome might be for him. I wasn’t thinking that she might leave him. I was thinking that she might thank me for the fun and the counsel and say she was moving on now. She had outgrown our relationship. Anything she said about James needing to be put down this way was so much crap. She was clawing up the ladder and now the cuckold thing could be set gently aside.

Saturday, two texts from Emily, both saying she missed me. ‘I am serious about you’ sounded reassuring. But was this just Em being glib?
Sunday, another couple of texts. ‘This is so right, I’ll explain later’ was more ambiguous. What the fuck had they been doing or saying?

I have decided to continue the thread and report the journey. If it works out well, then take from it as you will. If it arouses and informs, then great. If it turns out shit, then pause and analyse what went wrong. Don’t make the mistakes yourself. If you are cucking right now, see if you can spot warning signs. If you are just playing with the idea, well, talk a lot more about how it might be for you. My decision comes from a conviction, that this lifestyle is right for some. It is right for very assertive and discriminating wives and submissive husbands who are honest with one another. They may be a small group, but we need to talk about the experiences and the ways to work things out as you go along. That is why I’ll stick with the thread for now.