Re: In praise of Emily

In my experience cucks have little crises of confidence along the way. Well James had one of his last night. It was one of those angst where is this all going things, but I’m sure that it was really triggered by the fact that tomorrow we are having our fuckfest Valentine’s party. What’s encouraging is that James feels able to talk to me. Whilst i cam close in on this, he knows that i have some experience in these matters.

‘So how are things man? You all ready for Friday night?’
‘Well yes, I’ve organised the food and drink, the house is cleaned and the sheets all fresh.’
‘Good’
‘But I’m in the dog house…my mistress will probably tell you’
‘Hadn’t you better tell me first? It might work out better for you that way.’
‘well, I sort of lost it earlier today…during a conversation.’
‘Lost it?’
‘I asked to be excused tomorrow night…from waiting on I mean’
‘That was fucking stupid wasn’t it!’
‘I know’
‘Emily does this for you too you know. You’ve spoken about this…’
‘I know, honest…I do. But I lost my nerve’
‘What did you say…’
‘Well I said that I wasn’t sure that I was ready. I said that it might be best if I was out of the house, or sick in my bed or something’
‘The intercom would be on. Your mistress would see that as pleasure sneaking’
‘She was cross for sure’
‘Bet she was’
‘She slapped me and told me that I would attend. If I safe worded her then of course I was let off, but I was let off for the next month as well. She would move in with Duncan for a few weeks to help me think.’
‘This bigger than the party man?’
‘No…’
‘You sure?’
‘Well…’
‘Let’s start with the party then. What do you think will happen there?’
‘You’ll fuck my mistress and Mags’
‘For sure..’
‘Your friend will fuck Emily too.’
‘Of course’
”He’s a black dude isn’t he..’
‘I hope that you’re not being racist James!’
‘No…honest. I’m not. But Mum said he was big, very big downstairs.’
‘You have a black stud anxiety my friend?’
‘May be, may be yes.’
‘A lot of blokes do. But you have to handle it man. Your mistress is going to take a lot of alpha cock. She is part of that scene. You don’t think she wants your cock still do you?’
‘I know she doesn’t ..’
‘Then the colour, size and weight of cock is immaterial. You have a different duty man. Your thing is with that tongue of yours.’
‘I know…I tell myself that, and sometimes it works’
‘Sometimes it doesn’t though?’
‘Sometimes it doesn’t. The thought of my mistress fucking so hard with someone else. She will forget whatever I manage.’
‘But this is lifestyle fucking. This is for her pleasure. Its social. Its not like these guys are her partners big time. I am.’
‘That’s what keeps me sane. You at least discuss this with me. My worries. My mistress seems so much more sophisticated these days. She is so much more greedy for cock and because she gets lots of it she assumes it is her right.’
‘It is her right…she is beautiful and talented. It is her right man’
‘I know and for a lot of the time I am stiff about that. It is a turn on.’
‘But its so big right now. How much more is she fucking would you say?’
‘Well…’
‘Put it this way, what percentage of her time is devoted to sex with other men?’
‘I guess its over 60%’
‘You sure?’
‘Well yes. Before we would fuck occasionally, and fantasize whilst i licked her out, but that was maybe 5% of our time.’
‘You factoring in her work time and social time with other men?’
‘Shit Jezz, if I do that I have 20% of her free time and they have 80%’
‘But you don’t know that she is fucking all the time do you?’
‘I don’t, but I am jealous. Of course I am.’
‘The socializing is important man. Its getting us all ready for a more open arrangement. There will come a time when we have parties-not sex parties, where it is just normal that she has her lovers present and their friends. I will be the constant influence, but she will fuck as she choses. You signed up to that right?’
‘Yes, I did.’
‘You will be there and you will be needed. She will want to see you submit to the alpha set. She will need those sweet little chores doing. She loves having you lap her cunt.’
‘Will she make me suck cocks?’
‘Yes.’
‘I find that hard. Afterwards I am so turned on by it, because of her. But during the time I have to steel myself to do it.’
‘She wouldn’t want it so much if it was easy for you.’
‘I know. She is very hard’
‘That’s her nature and you need to wrap around that. You need to help her be herself.’
‘I worship her. She’s a bitch to me but I worship her.’
‘You had a drink tonight?’
‘No’
‘You sure?’
‘No.’

‘How’s the butt training going?’
‘It’s going’
‘You don’t sound enthusiastic’
‘I am…I get these strange, squirming sensations inside. My balls jag when she does it. But its the thought of her fucking me in front of other people later.’
‘That’s a good way off my friend. First she wants you stretched, then she will start to fuck you. It will be private for ages.’
‘I’ll hang on to that idea’
‘Do you put your butt up nicely for her so that she can milk you?’
‘Yes’
‘You like that?’
‘Crazy, yes…I do. Its the feeling of lost control.’
‘Emily is your complete boss isn’t she. Emily is your empress, your queen.’
‘Yes, all of those things. I’m completely…well, completely obsessed with her.’
‘And she needs that man. She needs that as much as you need to put your butt up to her.’
‘You have a point’
‘More than that James. Its the glue between you. You’ve found what works for you both. This is your relationship.’
‘You don’t think that she will leave me?’
‘Frankly…I don’t. But it depends on you doing your thing. OK you’ve got your word, and once in a blue moon you should use it. But most times you do as your mistress says. Right?’
‘Right’
‘You need to get some sleep man. What’s Emily up to tomorrow?’
‘She’s out with Duncan in the evening. I think they’re going to the theatre.’
‘That’s good…ain’t it?’
‘Yes’
‘Why is it good man?’
‘Because she looks fabulous when she dresses for those sort of evenings. Because she will have such a good time. Because he is so attentive and because, he will fuck her afterwards and she will come back and tease me.’
‘Get some sleep. Friday night you will be fine.’