My Story (The Road to Acceptance)

It was an emotional time for me, but I guess I also learned something about myself. I never would have imagined getting sexually aroused by the fact my now ex wife was fucking another man. But I did and I cannot stop thinking about it and wondering if that is what I want.

Why did I want to see another man fucking my wife? What the fuck was wrong with me? I was devastated when I learned my first wife was fucking another guy. I was angry, jealous, confused, devastated, lost. So if I had all of these emotions when my first wife was fucking another guy, how in the hell was I ever going to handle my new wife fucking another guy? But that bombshell that shattered my marital life with my first wife unlocked something inside of me. I still remember begging my first wife not to leave me for him, the things I promised her if she would stay. I would not interfere with her life and her lover, that she could continue to fuck him, that I would raise their kid as my own, that I would publicly acknowledge that he was the father, that I would welcome him into our lives, that I would move out of our marital bedroom and let him move in. I had no idea at the time that I was willing to be a cuckold. And it fucking made me horny, my cock hard thinking about it.
So now here I was, my unexpected desire expressed to my new wife, no way to take that back. And she wanted to fuck her ex, she fucking wanted to fuck her ex. So I let it go, this fantasy this desire, for months. Nothing was said between us. At first our sex life sort of went on hold, but with time we were fucking, making love again.
And yet this desire was constantly invading my thoughts, more as time went by. It actually was in reach. I had expressed my desire to my wife, she actually agreed to do, to let another man fuck her. I could fulfill this fantasy, to see another man naked with my naked wife, his cock inside of her, fucking her, cumming in her. But the problem was the man, the man my wife would agree to fuck. Her ex, her fucking ex-husband. I was not jealous of him, at least it never bothered me that she was married before to another guy. I had been married to another woman. Fucked another cunt so the fact that she and her ex had fucked in the past was the past. But did I want to see them together, to experience what it was like when they use to fuck, what it was like for them? Honestly, the answer was no. But it would provide what I wanted. No matter who the guy was, if we moved forward, another cock was going to penetrate my wife’s cunt, fuck her, cum in her. I just could not think about any consequences.
I told my wife that I would welcome her ex into our bed.
She would discuss this possibility with her ex. (What the fuck would he think of me?)

I know it has been quite a long time since I posted but we had some stressful times occur right after my last post. Not to get into the details, but everyone is going to be fine. My ex-wife was involved in a serious car accident, with our two kids on the car. She and one of our kids was in the hospital for a couple of weeks. I was going out of my mind with worry, there were surgeries, broken ones, I was frantic, but it is all good now. Everyone is home, bones are mending. In retrospect, it was hard sitting near my ex’s husband in the hospital those days, that fucker, but I guess we had some bonding during those worrisome times. We actually spoke to each other, civilly.
But enough about that. I need to finish what happened that night with my wife and her ex.

So he had his hands on her tits, sucking on one nipple and then another. My wife’s hands behind his head, pushing his face, his mouth against her tits. I noticed his hand on her bare thigh, grabbing it, slightly inching it up. I thought my cock was going to split in half, I was so horny. I barely could breath, or move. His hand slid up further until I saw his fingers, then his hand go up under her skirt. His hand disappeared and part of his arm, but then I could see the skirt hem moving up with his arm, exposing more of her bare thigh. I swear I could detect when he realized she had no panties on, something about his movement, his arm stopped, his face pulled back slightly from the tit he was sucking, but then he resumed his tit sucking and I saw his arm movement and knew he was reaching for her cunt. It is amazing to actually watch body movement, how the body responds to sexual touch, stimulation. I knew when his fingers touched the lips of her cunt by how my wife’s body arched slightly, ever so slightly, and I swear I heard a slight moan. I definitely heard a moan from her and her body reacting when he clearing pushed a finger or fingers into her cunt, penetrating her pussy lips, brushing her clit. He was finger fucking her, she was reacting to it. I realized I was pressing my hand hard against my crotch, my cock so erect, hard. Clearly he was totally lost in the moment, I am not sure he even cared I was in the room.
So he was finger fucking her, my wife reacting to it, I could see her enjoying it. Suddenly I wondered if I made her feel that way when I finger fucked her. Did I finger fuck her like he was doing, was he better than me?? I knew I needed to stop these thoughts or I would go nuts, but I could feel that jealousy creeping in.
I must have been lost in my thoughts when I realized my wife had pushed his arm out from under her skirt, ending the finger fucking.
I watched as my wife stood up, removed her shirt, her upper body, her beautiful breast exposed and she took his hand and pulled him up off the couch. She was leading him – to our bedroom, to our marital bed. He just followed, I just sit there like in a daze, and I could see his bulge in his pants. As they were leaving the room, I quickly got up and followed.
As they were going up the stairs I saw him touch her ass, his hands on her ass. I was noticing everything, my emotions all over the place. But my cock was hard, it was definitely in control. Once in the bedroom, I watched as my wife slipped out of her skirt, her hot ass exposed and she crawled onto the bed. She was fucking teasing him, showing her ass, being in the doggy position.
I watched as he stripped naked, like a dog in heat, shoes flipped off, pants pulled down and off, shirt pulled off baring his muscular chest and I waited to see what he was packing in those boxers. I had wondered of course but the moment of truth would be there in a second. He pulled them down, stepped out of them. I could not see completely but I could see his big thick cock head and part of his thick shaft.
My wife laid on her back, her tits firm but slightly down on each side, her nipples red and swollen. I watched as she watched him, saw her spread her legs slightly. Too much to take in, her naked, him naked. Then he moved to the end of the bed and I could see him completely naked. Low hanging big balls, that fucking thick cock shaft and he had a fucking big long cock head, with a very noticeable slit. Bigger then me, more than an inch bigger for sure, but so thick and that fucking cock head. I was paralyzed.
He moved up onto the bed, going between my wife’s legs, she was spreading them further, revealing her cunt, her cunt lips were swollen, they looked wet. He got closer, his knees near her cunt, and he grabbed her right tit, massaging it, squeezing it and when down on it, sucking it. My wife was reacting to his touch, her back slightly arching, moaning, grabbing his head.
I so wanted to strip naked but I could not move. This was happening, he was going to fuck my wife.
He moved to the other tit, sucking it, manhandling it and I could see his rock hard cock hovering over my wife’s cunt, fuck it was big. I know it was my imagination but I swear it looked like it was still growing.
Suddenly my wife fucking orgasmed, thrashing and bucking. How the fuck did that happen and then I realized he had been fingering her this whole time. I was so concentrated on him sucking her tits and his big cock I never saw his hand between her legs.
I saw him lift off her tit, shift his body down, grab his cock. Oh god, fuck, fuck, fuck. I watched as he positioned his cock, at first his big cock head pushing slightly against her cunt. He was rubbing his cock head against her cunt, spreading her cunt lips, and then I realized he was starting the penetration. The tip of his head sliding in. Was he doing this slowly because I was there and he wanted me to see him penetrate her or is this how he fucks?? I watched as his big long cock head disappear between those cunt lips, the shaft sliding in. He had his cock going into my wife. And then he fully penetrated her, and started fucking her, slowly at first, then faster, slow again, faster. I looked at my wife and she was lost in the moment, she was enjoying it, her hands touching him, grabbing his ass.
I was so into watching I did not even realize I had stripped naked, my rock hard cock in my hands. I was masturbating – in front of my wife and her ex, the man now fucking her. I really never fully masturbated in front of my ex or my wife. But I was stroking.
He kept fucking her, his hands grabbing her ass, her tits. How long did they fuck, it seemed forever. But then he suddenly started pounding her, my wife was moaning loudly. Fuck he made her orgasm again.
And then I saw the muscles in his body stiffen, he was fucking pounding her cunt and he cried out. He was cumming, shooting his load in my wife. With his cock shoved deep in my wife, he filled her cunt with his cum, then he just kept his cock in her, lifting up his body, hovering over my naked wife.
The deed was done, my wife was fucked by another man. My desires, fantasy fulfilled. I was so caught up in the moment I really did not think about how I felt. I was just aroused, my cock so hard it hurt.
He soon pulled out, his cock still hard and I could see that it was wet and had cum on it. He rolled over and laid on the bed, his cock and balls fully exposed. And my wife’s cunt was a gaping hole, evidence of how fucking thick his cock is. Without hesitation I moved to the bed, climbed on top of my wife and penetrated her, fucking her. She was so wet and normally I can feel friction, her cunt tight, but it was like fucking water. It felt good, but my cock seemed lost in her. As I was fucking her, he turned to his side and began fondling my wife’s tit. He was fucking playing with her tit while I was fucking her. At that moment I just came, shooting my load in her. I rolled on the other side of my wife and laid there.

My wife’s ex husband has now fucked my wife on four occasions so far. All in our marital bed. I really experienced severe anxiety and dread after the first time I watched them fuck. It is amazing how horny I was watching them while it was happening and then fucking her after he came and pulled out of her, with him lying their naked, playing with her tits. After I came, the three of us just laid there in our marital bed, completely naked, my wife fucked, his cum and my cum in her cunt, his still wet cock laying semi-hard between his legs, just like mine. It was like no one could move. But my wife eventually got up to clean up as cum starting dripping out of her cunt. So there I was naked, her ex naked in the same bed. Talk about an awkward moment. No one said anything. He got up, his fucking cock hanging down over his low hanging balls, and he walked out of the bedroom and I heard him go into the guest bathroom. The door was obviously left open as I heard a strong steady stream of piss in the toilet. He came back into the room and asked for a beer. So I got up to put pants on but I saw him just head towards the stairs, still naked, so I did the same
It was surreal, getting him a beer while naked, me naked, as if it was all normal, as if I had not just experienced his cock in my wife. At some point I will document our conversation, but needless to say, my wife took his cock one more time that night before he left.
That night I could not sleep, reliving the moment, partly excited and partly angry, partly afraid. I had asked my wife how she felt about it after he left. She looked at me and asked me if I really want to know. I think I stammered and said yes. She said it was incredible sex. She did not want to upset me but she missed his cock, the way he fucked her. (Maybe I did not want to hear this, fuck!) I asked her if she wanted to do it again. Let’s just it was a very enthusiastic and quick yes. She did ask me how I felt about all it and if it was what I had wanted. I said it was (even though I was starting to doubt it).
So my wife loves his cock, loves how he fucks her. Was she telling me that I was not a good lover, that my cock was not something that really turned her on?? Talk about a major inferiority complex. But the fuck was I expecting. It was the risk, guys on this site told me that. There would be no going back I was told over and over again. But I do not need to bore you with my anguish, it is something I have to deal with.
Of course when our house was empty of kids and he could drop off their kids at his mother’s house, he wanted to come over again. My wife put down her phone, asked me if it was okay for him to come over (I swear I could see it in her face that she was already sexually excited) and I said yes. So this is the beginning and I have no idea where it is going to lead.

I suppose one day I will be able to thorough enjoy my new role as a cuckold, yes I am coming to the acceptance that I am a cuckold. I chose this path I am now on, even though I was inadvertently thrust into being a cuckold with my first wife, whether or not I was aware that was what I became. But I think the hardest part for me is actually watching my current wife sucking another man’s cock. I would have thought watching her being fucked by another man would be hard, but there is something about watching my wife take another man cock in her mouth and suck on it. It is such an intimate act. It becomes all about him, as she is pleasuring his cock. I have had my cock in her mouth many times, but seeing her open her mouth and take him into it really gets to me. It actually makes me uncomfortable, jealous.
He has not cum in her mouth, yet, as he prefers to cum in her cunt, but I know she will gladly let him cum in her mouth and she will swallow his cum. She has done that for me so I know she has done that for him in the past and will do it again. Thinking of him cumming in her mouth upsets me. Why the fuck would that upset me when I have watched him numerous times now fuck and cum in her cunt?

I do have to admit our sex life has become more intense since venturing down this road. We have it more often, it does not always end up with straight intercourse but there is more cocksucking or hand jobs from my wife, sometimes in unexpected places and I have finger fucked her and eaten her cunt more than ever. I guess bringing her ex her into our sex lives has been a positive thing for us, sexually and emotionally. For the 4th time she has gone to his place after work, when their kids are staying with us, and fucked. She will let me know the plan, which honestly makes me so horny and this last time I had to beat one out at work. When she got home I asked for her panties as she was changing her clothes and sniffed them, smelling her and him and I could see his semen on them. She saw that I was hard in my pants so she undid them and sucked me off, while I continued sniffing those panties. I came and she swallowed. I guess all is good, right?

Watching his cock sliding in and out of my wife’s cunt was amazing to watch. I do not know if my cock was rock hard because my wife was sucking it or because of seeing his rock hard cock going in and out of her cunt. I loved licking her clit and feeling the movement of his cock in her. I did not expect or seek to have his cock in my mouth, but when he pulled out and his cock, being so thick and heavy, hanging down in front of my face, I just opened my mouth and let it slid in. I could taste my wife’s cunt on his cock. I know I sucked it briefly, closing my lips on his shaft.

So yesterday was Father’s Day. I had fun with my kids, even though my ex-wife would only let me have them for a few hours. She said they really needed to be with their step-father and their half-brother, so she picked them up around dinner time. She is such a bitch. The worse part is he came to pick up my kids without her. They call him dad too (fuck).
As for my wife’s ex, he had his kids all day yesterday. He came by in the morning. Their kids were finishing up watching a movie. When he came in he asked if my wife had a father’s day gift for him. With me as the lookout, my wife sucked him off, exposing her tits to him which he rigorously fondled while he fucked her mouth. He came, she swallowed, she covered up her tits, he put his cock back in his pants just a minute or two before his kids showed up ready to go. I had to hide my erection and quickly jerked off in the bathroom right after they left. Happy Father’s day to me.

Repeat since not sure this got posted correctly.
Happy 4th to everyone, hope you all had fun.
Well I think this is going to be an exciting weekend and upcoming week, even though I have trepidation about it. (Will I ever just relax and enjoy it?) Why because my kids are off on vacation with my ex and her fucking husband starting today through next weekend and my wife and her ex’s kids are spending the next two weeks with their grandparents, my wife’s parents. So, there are no kids here or at his place.
The ex is coming over shortly and is spending the weekend here and most of this coming week. He has suggested a nudist weekend, no clothes except if we go out. Yes I have seen him naked, fucking my wife, strutting around with that big cock swinging between his legs, but now it will be all the time, even when there is no sex. I am not intimated being naked around him, but it does make feel somehow inferior. There will be plenty of sex for sure, which is good. But he will be part of our lives, all day. My wife naked and I can imagine he will be touching her a lot, caressing her tits, rubbing her naked ass, rubbing his hard cock up against her. He will fuck her often I am sure. I asked my wife is she was okay with unlimited fucking by him, whenever he wanted, and she said yes. For now it is my understanding we will all be sleeping in our marital bed. I know I will be having sex too, but there is something about him living here. I worry that I will be replaced in my own home. Oh well, I need to think positive and enjoy whatever happens.

It has been a crazy, erotic, sex-filled (sometimes somewhat upsetting) weekend and it has not ended. When I have more time I will provide some details, but needless to say, the three of us were nude all weekend together. He fucked my wife more times than I can remember (okay, I know how many times) and she sucked on his cock like it was a hotdog she wanted to eat. I got some sex, but not as much as he did. Sleeping in the same bed for the past few nights has been an adjusted, especially waking up to find him on top of her fucking. I guess I knew that would happen. But the (fun!?) has not ended. He is still here, basically living with us and I just found out he took the day off as did my wife. I have to leave shortly for work. I am upset about it. I know there has been some sex without me already, but it is going to be hard to be at work knowing what is going on here. I did fuck my wife early this morning after he got finished, so I got laid, but now I can only imagine what is going on here sexually.

Well the nude weekend has extended into the week and will wrap up into this nude weekend. Yes he has lived with us all week, with the three of us basically naked except for when we have gone out. Kids come back tomorrow.
So, just some highlights. Yes there has been a lot of sex. Let’s just say his cock is pretty worn out as it my wife’s cunt. I have had my share, but realize I do get off just watching them have sex. So many times I have just been an observer. I have learned that my wife is a sex slut, primarily around him and he is a horny dog. As I mentioned a few days ago, they both took a day off from work, which I did not know about. Leaving that morning, seeing them both nude and I was dressed for work was hard. When I said goodbye to my wife his cock was in her. He was laying on top of her, his rock hard cock deep in her. They were fucking obviously but he stopped his movement long enough for me to bend down to kiss my wife. I had a meeting that I had to get going for. He quickly resumed fucking as I walked out of the room. I have to admit I was actually upset, leaving them as they were fucking. I actually cried on the way to work. Yes I know they have had sex without me present, at his place and ours, but this was the first time I saw them fucking and I was not still around. All day long my mind wandered, thinking of what they could be doing together. Sex of course, and without me, something they clearly planned. I think that hurt the most, that I was purposely excluded. When I got home they had made dinner together, we all ate together, chilled out on the back deck (we have privacy in our yard so being naked outside is awesome) and later the three of us had sex, starting with my wife taking turns sucking and playing with our cocks. Then we moved to the bedroom where the fucking took place. We all got off.
The oddest thing about all of this is that we have acted like this is all normal, them having sex, being all naked together, him living here with us this week, and no discussion about any of it. Just letting it happen as it happens. I worry that my wife has rekindled feelings for her ex as she is “loving” towards him. I know she loves me, I can tell by her behavior, but I sense that she still loves him. Can she love two men or is it different kind of love? I am afraid of it, what it all means. I have to admit I like him and definitely would consider him a friend without hesitation if we were just friends and not sharing my wife. Am I developing feelings for him (not in a sexual way)? Has the sex created some kind of bond? There is something about the intimacy of sex that creates a bond, that has been true with my two marriages. I loved my first wife and the sex enhanced it until she betrayed me. This has been true with my current wife. Even though he and I are not lovers, being with him and watching him having sex, being naked with him, experiencing his orgasms, that vulnerable moment when he cums, something is growing between us. And he has been there when I have fucked my wife and cum, participating in the act. (And yes, his cock has slipped into my mouth that one time.)
This entire experience is not what I expected or could have ever imagined. Oh well, I am off to enjoy the rest of today and tomorrow until he leaves.

I guess I should not put out there my concerns as they tend to come back to bite me in the ass. So I responded to some comments to my post about taking my wife’s ex’s cock in my mouth during one of our sexual adventures and indicated I thought I would just wait to see if he ever approach the subject of what I did. Well guess who stopped by when I was alone yesterday afternoon. He ex. My wife took their kids to her parents house for a visit while I stayed home to get some things done out in the yard. Apparently he knew I was home alone and he stopped by. I asked him if there was something he needed and he told me we needed to talk. Let’s just say I could suddenly feel nervous but I managed to say okay, what did he have in mind. And he came right out and said it, “we need to talk about you sucking my cock.” I know I turned red in the face and just looked at him, suddenly not able to speak. I needed to sit down, so I moved to a chair on the deck. I looked up at him and managed to say okay. He sat down near me and he asked me the question. Did I like sucking his cock? I know I hesitated and stammered but said, yes. There it was, I admitted to him I like sucking his cock. He did not say anything. In a panic I asked him if he was okay with it, with me. He looked at me and asked me exactly what my wife asked me when I approached the subject of another man in our bed. “Are you gay?” I quickly replied I was not gay, I loved women, sex with women. Then he wanted to know if I thought I was bi. I told him I was not sure. I never thought of myself as bi, never really thought about sex with men. “But you liked sucking my cock” he said. I admitted I did. “You wanted to see another naked man in your bed, having sex with your wife, seeing me naked, my cock hard, getting sucked by her, fucking her. Apparently that turns you on” he went on to say. Again I admitted it did. “I think you are bi” he concluded. So I asked him if he was okay with it. He said he did not care. I asked him if he was okay with our current arrangement and he smiled and said “fuck yes”. I told him I enjoyed the time the three of us spend together and he agreed he did too. So I asked him he liked when I sucked his cock. He smiled, stood up, undid his pants and exposed himself to me. “Why don’t we find out?” he said. He moved towards me, and yes I took him in my mouth. Okay okay I sucked his cock. I sucked him and when he told me he was going to come I let him cum in my mouth. “I guess I like it” he said as he zipped up. Before I could say anything he told me not to say anything to Trish, for now it would be out little secret. Then he left.
So I have officially sucked another man’s cock, his cock, taken his cum in my mouth and we were alone together. Not sure what it all means, but I did masturbate after he left, reliving the experience

An incredible experience this afternoon. I had taken my kids back to their mother after having them for most of the weekend. My wife’s kids were with her ex. So you can imagine my surprise when I got home from dropping off my kids to find him in my house. His car was in the driveway and when I got inside the house I found out he was in our shower. My wife was nude except for a sheer nightgown, reading in the family room. My first thought was did they fuck, but I asked how was he here and where were their kids. With his parents for a visit I soon learned. I so wanted to ask if they fucked but I asked why he was taking a shower. Apparently he was helping his father with some yard work, gotten dirty and instead of going home to shower he came here to our place. But was wife was nude in a sheer nightgown and he was naked in the shower. They fucked, didn’t they? Why didn’t I just ask her. But I only said she looked fucking sexy in that nightgown. I wanted to fuck her right there but refrained.
Soon I heard him coming downstairs and he entered the family room, naked except for a towel around his middle. He said hi to me, went over and passionately kissed my wife, cupping a breast as he was kissing her. I could feel myself getting rock hard. Was he going to fuck her right there? But he come away from her, sat on one of the chair, spreading his legs so that the towel just hung over his cock and balls. He told me to sit down which I did and then he did something unexpected. He told my wife to strip naked and finger herself. She laughed but slid out of her nightgown fully exposing herself. First she fondled her tits, and played with her nipples, making them swell and turn a deep red. Then sliding her hand down to her crotch, spreading her legs to reveal her cunt lips. Was she already wet down there or was that his cum, as I could see the area glistening with moisture. I think I gasped, from holding my breath, as I watched her fingers part her cunt lips and a finger slid inside. I quickly looked over at him to find his cock exposed, fully erect, with his rubbing it. My cock was hard and I started to undo my pants when he told me to stop, to stay dressed. Fuck, he was making me obey him. I know I hesitated, my hands ready to unfasten the button on my jeans, to free my cock, but I stopped, did as he said. Sitting back, fucking horny, I turned back to my wife. She was finger fucking herself with one hand, the other rubbing her clit, clearly oblivious to us watching her masturbate. Moaning, rubbing, finger fucking her cunt. I could tell she was close. And then she orgasm, it was a very intense one. Her body shaking, lost in the pleasure of her orgasm. I was so intent on watching her cum I did not realize he had gotten up and was standing near her, naked, stroking furiously. He kneeled down by her tits and I watched as he shot a fucking big load first on one tit and then the other. He clearly had a very intense orgasm as well watching my wife play with herself and cum. Her tits were covered with his cum, a big glob sitting on her left nipple. He got up, sat down, looked at me and said I probably should take care of that. Take care of that?? I stood up ready to strip but again he said no. Fuck, I so wanted to be naked and fucking her. But I went over to her, kneeled down next to her. She arched her back to fully expose her cum covered tits to me. Was I really go to do this? Yes I have licked her cunt after he has fucked and cum in her, but never this. Without thinking I bent over and started licking his cum off her tits. She moved her body so that I would lick all of her tit and then moved so that I could start on the other. The salty taste of his cum on my tongue, in my mouth. I could tell she was enjoying it and I found my hand down between her legs, playing with her already sensitive clit and swollen cunt lips. I was so fucking hard that it hurt being in my briefs and jeans. I just wanted to pull it out and fuck her. I think he knew exactly what I was thinking because he told me to stay dressed. With her tits wet from my tongue but cleared of his cum as best as I could do, I suckled her nipples until she had another orgasm. I then got up and sat back in the chair. I was so horny, frustrated, but somehow content. My wife went upstairs to take a shower, he got dressed and left. I sat there sexually unfulfilled but somehow knew it was my place to be.

That would be the ultimate submission. I think I would be ready for that, but my manhood is worried about it. I will leave it up to them to decide.