Reply To: My Story (The Road to Acceptance)

Why did I want to see another man fucking my wife? What the fuck was wrong with me? I was devastated when I learned my first wife was fucking another guy. I was angry, jealous, confused, devastated, lost. So if I had all of these emotions when my first wife was fucking another guy, how in the hell was I ever going to handle my new wife fucking another guy? But that bombshell that shattered my marital life with my first wife unlocked something inside of me. I still remember begging my first wife not to leave me for him, the things I promised her if she would stay. I would not interfere with her life and her lover, that she could continue to fuck him, that I would raise their kid as my own, that I would publicly acknowledge that he was the father, that I would welcome him into our lives, that I would move out of our marital bedroom and let him move in. I had no idea at the time that I was willing to be a cuckold. And it fucking made me horny, my cock hard thinking about it.
So now here I was, my unexpected desire expressed to my new wife, no way to take that back. And she wanted to fuck her ex, she fucking wanted to fuck her ex. So I let it go, this fantasy this desire, for months. Nothing was said between us. At first our sex life sort of went on hold, but with time we were fucking, making love again.
And yet this desire was constantly invading my thoughts, more as time went by. It actually was in reach. I had expressed my desire to my wife, she actually agreed to do, to let another man fuck her. I could fulfill this fantasy, to see another man naked with my naked wife, his cock inside of her, fucking her, cumming in her. But the problem was the man, the man my wife would agree to fuck. Her ex, her fucking ex-husband. I was not jealous of him, at least it never bothered me that she was married before to another guy. I had been married to another woman. Fucked another cunt so the fact that she and her ex had fucked in the past was the past. But did I want to see them together, to experience what it was like when they use to fuck, what it was like for them? Honestly, the answer was no. But it would provide what I wanted. No matter who the guy was, if we moved forward, another cock was going to penetrate my wife’s cunt, fuck her, cum in her. I just could not think about any consequences.
I told my wife that I would welcome her ex into our bed.
She would discuss this possibility with her ex. (What the fuck would he think of me?)