Re: Whimpy Fag Cuckold Wantabee with no balls seeks advise

Indycuck:

Very nice, I wish you all the luck.  I am much in the same boat.  I'll be interested in what you learn on your journey.

indycuck4u said:

Luvr kindly suggested that I start a new post here, in hopes that someone can help guide me to making my ultimate fantasy, become a reality. To be come a cuckold to my wife.

First I am very grateful and thankful to Luvr for developing this site as a real resource amid the fake pay sites that proport to be real cuckold sites.

I
am the hubby half of a married white couple and have been lucking in the shadows of the old fmsb site and now here at
the new site. I am a cuckold “wantabee”, and have been for many many
years. As a whimpy fag cuckold wantabee I have just never had the “balls”, (can a true cuck claim to
ever have balls?) to move forward and even discuss this with my wife.

As a married white couple, we have been together
ever since we were high school sweethearts, and the wife has NO sexual
experience other than ours. And with a 5.5″ uncut cock, it's obvious she has not had much in the way of sexual experience. She simply has no way of knowing this, and no way of ever knowing what kind of real pleasures are out there with a real man, let alone that this is what I desperately want for her.

I am looking for ideas, assistance and help in making this undying
fantasy finally a reality. Anyone that would like to coach me one on
one would be most welcome, or here via the forums.  I hope to make the most of the forums and
other site information and still trying to find my way around the site
and trying to get the chat to work for me for futher detailed discussions.

I really can't explain why I would want this. How I could want to see my wife give in and submit to another man, a real man with a much bigger and more powerful cock and for her to allow, even desire his touch, feel, taste and ultimately his cum deep inside her. And all the while she will know I am watching helplessly and in fact encouraging him and her. And, as she will be able to see that I am completely aroused and stroking my 5.5″ toy of a cock, what thoughts will be going thur her head, what will be be thinking of me, as I will likely be crying by her side and dying inside while stroking as big a hardon as she will have ever seen on me?

I understand that all this sounds fantastic to me as a fantasy. And I understand at this point it's just a fantasy. I understand that should I ever get this fantasy to be a reality, once another man touches her, caresses her tits and then her pussy, once she touches his massive cock and then the head of his big cock touches her pussy lips, once he guides himself into her and he starts to enter her as he holds her ass firm to push deep into her, as her pussy lips part for an unfamiliar cock, things will have changed forever and we can never go back. Once he unloads his cum into her willing white married wife's pussy, that will be the eternal point of no return. She will never be able to erase that experience, that sensation, the taste, feel, desire and the climax she would have would likely be like no other in her whole life, all for a real man.

I fear that while this is a fantasy, I can not get out of my mind, even knwoing with my very soul it will be very very painful, humiliating and demasculating for me, it's all I think about. As they say, “Be careful what you wish for.”, however I just can't get this thought and dark desire out of my head. I really don't know or have any idea how I would react if this became a reality. I fear I will cry in great dispair and humiliation and know that I will never ever be the same person or boy that the wife thought I was and she knew.

Is there anyone that can help me?