Re: Contradictory feelings that I can’t understand …. Please advise me !!

There are issues here that are much deeper than simply what you are discussing.Having been in this lifestyle for over 15 yrs I can say that your feelings on one level are pretty common. Clearly you have an inclination to be a cuckold and to have your wife sexually satisfied and are reverting back to him being with your wife because THAT is the cuckold experience you have thus far. I see several issues here that would be red flags for us. First off, at the very core of what my wife and I do as a couple is the strength of our marriage. Nothing and no one will ever have the opportunity to break us up. That is simply not going to happen. Her body may be owned by another man, and it is… however, all parties know where the lines are drawn and all parties respect those limits. Suffice it to say, this guy was not what I would consider a bull, he’s a jackass without any ethics or integrity. The other red flag I see in all this is that your wife allowed herself to be manipulated by him to the degree that she would actually leave you for him. To me, that portends a much more serious issue for the two of you. It is my belief that before you jump into the pool of cuckolding again, that you boh get clear on how you feel for each other, about your marriage, and the ground rules you will opearte within, or my friend you will be drowing in that pool.