Re: Denial

Luvr – I’ve been looking over the rest of this site including the many different explanations and analysis of different aspects of being a cuckold.
I’ve been unable to express how I feel at times, I couldn’t find the words to explain it. But then I saw May 2011 Page 2.
I’m not sure if you authored this content but it and other thoughts regarding denial are incredibly insightful for me.
I particularly liked what you said about why husbands such as myself in mutually satisfying sexual relationships would want to experience this.
Somewhere I read and it rang true that a big part of my desire to do this with my wife is to have the experience of being the beta-male after so many years.
Even if it isn’t all for real and she has an underlying desire to please me as a part – the effects are the same when we play it for real as we are.
The intensity I feel when I put on a condom, knowing I am denying myself of truly feeling my wife as we make love is incredibly arousing.

I have pushed her to experience many “firsts” with her lovers over the past few years. She long found this to be strange but now understands it much better.
Those experiences could really only be experienced one time. But this denial we are practicing seems to have struck the right balance for both of us.
It give her the erotic knowledge that only her lover shares the moment of orgasm truly in her and makes her feel incredibly horny – and it gives me an incredible sense of satisfaction knowing, as I said, that SHE wants this.

I now understand a bit more of what drives me in this desire with her.
You have a great website here.