Re: Denial

I find myself feeling incredibly horny and very satisfied now using condoms with her. I used to dread them and the associated lack of intimacy – I couldn’t have ever imagined willingly giving up feeling the silky inside of her pussy – but now – it’s strangely incredibly satisfying. I find myself being very aroused that only her lover is feeling that with her – and yes, that she denies me the fulfillment of cumming deep inside her – that is now reserved for her lover. I’ve found myself taken with this thought – that she is only having her lover’s cum in her – to the point that it arouses me incredibly. She very much enjoys having sex with me – she cums easily and frequently – sometimes I know the lubrication I can feel through the latex is her lovers semen still in her – that is an intense feeling.

I’m not sure I’m into the numbing stuff – that seems a bit too much – her intent/desire isn’t to deny me pleasure – it’s merely to deny me the pleasure of cumming in her. I know that in the past, when I’ve cum deeply inside her – that she says the sensation will frequently cause her to have a deep intense orgasm. It is incredibly arousing to me to know that she only feels that with her lover while I wait for our special time together. That, plus the knowledge that any wetness or lubrication in her is from him is just something that is so unexpectedly pleasurable.

She’s kidded with me (with some seriousness) that “some couples use condoms their whole time together”.