Re: So near, yet so far.

Some fantasies should remain just that…….or simply have to remain just that.  That was the realisation from this past weekend.  When push comes to shove,  my wife just can’t make the leap of faith. Certainly not in the parameters we have tried at least.

We travelled 100 miles to a fetish event in Birmingham UK to broaden our kink horizons and to meet another couple of kinksters we had befriended on Twitter and Fetlife.  The general plan had been to enjoy a night in the host club, enjoy the sights and sounds and then on the following evening meet up with the couple in question for our own “play” time in a hotel.  My wife Domming me, the other guy Domming his partner and maybe together, them Domming both of us subs.  The end result being that me and the other female sub would end up having to watch our respective partners fuck each other while we were restrained and ridiculed/humiliated.  Perfect for me and as I understood it, perfect for my fellow sub.

Let me rewind a little and give you a brief recap of our previous 3rd party events.  After “the talk” my wife found herself sleeping with her boss (which turned out to be a poor event in itself) at an overnight business conference she had to attend and after hearing my favourable response she was more at ease with the idea of having sex with others.  A few short weeks later we had aranged to visit a low-key fetish event at which my wife ended up having sex with a Dominant she had befriended at local fetish “Munches”.  I was present for this coupling but a little disappointed with the way things had played out. My wife felt the same way in hindsight but it was another step towards her getting more comfortable with the whole cuckolding concept, so it wasn’t a total failure at all.  And back to the here and now……..

After the fetish event we went back to our hotel room and I was treated to some attention through the means of T&D, edging, humiliation etc and in ways that my wife got enjoyment from it too.  The following day we did very little.  We just lounged around in our room waiting for the evening to arrive and the real, main event.  As time wore on, I could sense a great deal of apprehension coming from my wife about the forthcoming events.  It was now or never to have another cards on the table talk.

 The bottom line was that my wife would have gone through with the plans had I not known her as well as I do and it would have been all in the name of pleasing me.  My wife, by her own admission would have felt terrible for a few days and possibly a few weeks afterwards but she said herself that she would’ve gotten over it.  My wife is a strong willed individual and would have met the challenge and all in the name of her love for me but the whole cuckold thing should never be about a personal challenge.  It should be done through a desire in all concerned.  Everyone involved should WANT it.  It’s possible that hormones were at play as she seemingly wanted it to happen earlier in the month when arrangements were made.  She would get so horny when we explored potential scenarios for the night in question and other unrelated cuckolding possibilities elsewhere.  

We made contact with the other couple and cancelled.  Thankfully, they were very understanding.  We then played by ourselves which culminated in me having to clean up   the mess I made of my wife’s pussy which was considerable after 6 weeks in chastity!  

We both agreed to a few changes in terms of our fantasies and if and how they might play out.  Based on my wife’s admission that spontaneity would have to be key if she was to ever have extra-marital cock, I gave her assurance that if a viable opportunity presented itself to her that she should go for it.  There will be no more planning to fuck other men.  While that initially excites her, there is too much room for her nerves and conscience to intervene.

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