Re: Wife is having Lover’s Child

I felt the baby move today for the first time, although Caro l tells me that little ‘Abi’ (Abike) has been doing ballet dancing inside her for weeks now.  It seems that when I am around, the baby tends to be a little calmer than normal and similarly when Onye slides his manhood gently inside Carol from behind (it is a little difficult for ‘missionary’ lovemaking now), this has the same calming effect as well. It will not be long now before Carol will have to refuse her lover’s penetration; secretly I am wondering just how he will take the withdrawal of ‘rights’. Actually he is a good guy so I don’t think it will be a problem; he’s certainly not a brute.

It was admittedly a couple of weeks ago, but it was nevertheless a beautiful moment when I felt my wife’s lover’s child move for the first time and it is dawning on me now that I shall soon be faced with the inevitability the baby not resembling me in any way; least of all the colour of her skin.

Carols is now almost one month away from the birth so we (all three of us) are making plans to welcome Abi into our lives. A cot (crib) has been bought and I have decorated a small bedroom for her, although for the first few weeks she will be in with Carol and Onye while she is so young.

I have to be much more attentive to Carol now as her belly and breasts have become so big that her posture is been affected. Her feet ache from carrying the extra weight and her back aches from the weight of her breasts, so as a routine I massage her feet, legs and back three times a day, which she tells me is just what she needs right now. Clearly this has kept me very busy so I apologize for not updating sooner.

I make sure every day that I show Carol my devotion to her by kissing her on her ‘bump’; I do this just to remind her of how I feel about her and that I am O.K. with the forthcoming change to our lives. But I have to say that I do think about how people will react. Will they be kind and understanding? Will they laugh at me? Will I lose friends? Will Carol lose friends? Will we care about that, which is more to the point?

As the time grows near for Abi’s appearance into our lives, I have started reflecting on what I have become and why I have embraced my life as a cuckold. From the moment I found Onye in between my Wife’s legs nearly four years ago now, and my subsequent acceptance of the situation; the diminution of my manliness by wearing the restraint Carol bade me to wear which now feels part of me and is a token of my subjugation by her. Years now of listening to, and sometimes seeing, her being had by her Lover on his visits to our home; watching her go off with him on holidays leaving me at home to decorate the house. And recently, her informing me that she and Onye were going to try for a baby, which was couched in such terms that it was just her telling me what was going to happen. Finally, being brought into the bedroom for a whole cycle to relax her as Onye made love to her in order to impregnate her.

All these things make me clear as to what I am; I am not a fool (my career is in science) and I am physically strong; neither am I a weak man who can be bullied. I guess that I have not bought into a lifestyle at all, this implies that I think what I am doing is fashionable. I am a willing cuckold because I choose to be and it fulfils that inner masochism in me that wants to be her servant or slave and that is not a ‘fashion item’, that is a way of life.

What does the future hold for me? I don’t know, but one thing I do know is that my love and dedication to my wife will not waver even though she has cuckolded me in the most extreme way, and that I shall be a good father to Abi.

I shall let you know when the baby has been born, but if you forgive me not on that day. I expect that my wife and I will be busy.