Introduction

Hello,

I want to introduce myself and let everyone know a bit about my
interest and where I’m at in the process of becoming a cuckold.

I’m a 39 year old white professional male. I retired from the Air
Force last summer, and I’m currently working as a government
consultant. My lovely wife is 31 years old and is Bolivian. She came
to the US a few years back in order to get her Master’s Degree from
one of the University of California schools in the LA area. We met
right after she graduated and were married shortly thereafter.

I’ve had an interest in being a cuckold for 20 years. It’s a long time
to go with an unfulfilled desire, but as I get older I’m becoming more
patient and trying some new and different approaches. Before getting
married I was single for 6 years and had a fiancée during that time.
She was a petite Latina of Spanish and Columbian heritage that
resembled Penelope Cruz. Prior to that, I was married to my
high-school sweetheart. We originally got married because of a
teen-age pregnancy, but managed to hold on together for 13 years
before splitting apart.

I’ve come close to being cucked twice in the past 20 years. Once by my
ex-wife, and once by my ex-fiancée. My wife was well aware of my
desire, and met a young 20-something year old male in an internet chat
site that we used to frequent. We were living in Hawaii at the time
and she actually tried to catch a military space-available flight to
California in order to hook up with him. However, the flights kept
getting cancelled and the plan was eventually overcome by other
things. He had sent her a pic once of his huge dick, and I used to
love looking at it and imagining the things he’d to her with it. He
even called her on the phone once, and she spoke to him in front of
me. It was one of the most arousing things I had ever experienced.
Actually, it was the same feeling I used to get when we’d go to clubs
and I’d have her dance with other men. Sort of a bitter pain of
jealousy mixed with euphoric feeling that eventually led to arousal,
and a great desire to please her.  The other failed attempt was with
my ex-fiancée. I had spent the night at her place on night and we had
a great evening of cuck-themed, dirty sex. By the next morning she had
agreed to approach a coworker of hers that she found attractive and
let him know of her and my interest in him being with her. However,
she had some other issues going on at the time, (unresolved issues
from previous sex abuse in a cult disguised as a recovery group), and
so when she approached him she broke down emotionally. Although she
was able to tell him of our proposal, he declined and nothing ever
happened.

All that leads me to my current situation. At the end of this month my
wife and I will be celebrating our 2nd marriage anniversary. She’s
very aware of my interest to be a cuckold, and my desire for her to be
a hotwife, but so far she has mostly chosen to ignore it. In her
recent past, she was a self-described slut. When she came to the US to
obtain a master’s degree, she decided she wanted to party and have fun
while here. She became a big time rave girl, and liked casual sex with
select men. Actually, after coming to the states she didn’t have any
boyfriends, she had fuck-buddies. She had a marine that she used to go
to his barracks and fuck, and had a sailor that she used to fuck in
his apartment. What’s interesting to me is that he had roommates; so
other men were always aware when she was there giving it up. The same
goes for the barracks guy. I find the aspect of the somewhat
exhibitionistic display to be very arousing. She also dated a man that
was separated from his wife. She met him at the gym she used to go to,
and they started having frequent public sex in his car after workouts.
Again, more exhibitionism. She also used to sneak him into her room at
night at the place where she was living. Keeping others unaware of her
exploits seemed to be fun for her. She had a few other “young boys” as
she called them, but like I said earlier, they were all used solely
for sex when she was horny. She didn’t see them outside of when she
wanted sex. To be honest, it’s reason, where she had the ability to
have nothing but sex with no emotional attachments that I think makes
her perfect for the role of a hotwife.

Since getting married, she seems to have flipped a switch and is now
just the married/wife who is quite content with just me.  That’s where
the problem lies though. I’m at a point to where I believe that I
really need for her to cuck me. I often wake up in the middle of the
night and have an overwhelming desire for another man to be sleeping
there on the other side of her. Another thing that I find myself
doing, is when I’m angry with her I start cleaning. As a matter of
fact, I work a full time job, and do as many “chores” as possible
around the house in order to make her feel loved, and to try and show
her my acceptance of a submissive role.

The only glimmers of hope are that I know she finds certain men really
attractive, and unlike any other woman I’ve been with (ex-wife,
ex-fiancée, girlfriends), she tells me about it.  When she sees a hot
guy she makes MMM, type noise, and then laughs and blurts out, “slut!”
She also brings up the cuckold concept every now and then. For
example, when we come across a story, either in real life or in a
movie/TV where someone gets cheated on, or where someone else is the
real baby’s father, she always says, “you’d like that, isn’t it?” Of
course that’s with her cute Hispanic accent, but I enjoy that she
knows my desires and that they seem to be on her mind. On the other
hand, even with all that, she doesn’t like to have “dirty” sex with me
where I share my cuck fantasies with her. She says it is because I go
too far. What she’s referring to, is that I start asking her if she’d
do it for me, literally begging her to do it. When I ask too much it
kills her mood. I think that if I just planted the seed once per hot
sex session, things might turn out better. Maybe that’s all it takes.
It’s just difficult for me to scale it back like that when I’m inside
her and thinking about her with other men.

My plan is to continue to provide her with a very stable marriage and
home, treat her with love and hope that eventually she can release
that inner dirty girl that she buried inside herself when we got
married. Anyway, thanks for reading. Any comments, or suggestions
would be appreciated.