Re: Is there something I am not getting

In my opinion, anything that isn’t “vanilla” is like a drug or some kind of exciting adventure. You know you shouldn’t or you know there is a challenge involved but you have to have a taste of it. Sure, you can continue on the safe and sure path but you’re always going to be wondering……what if??
Cuckolding, regardless of what anyone says has its roots (in the last 30 or so years) in the fetish realm and because it involves so much trust, faith, preparation, it is for me, the cliff-jumping of fetish disciplines. Let’s say that vanilla sex is like football. Common, accepted and safe. Cuckolding, like cliff-jumping leaves its practitioners with minute room for error. Get it right and the rewards are are almost uncomprehensible to the average Joe. Get it wrong and and the consequences are equally unpalatable.
When Hillary was asked why he wanted to climb Everest his response was “Because it is there”. The same mentality applies to those with a cuckolding fetish. Many dream. Many make attempts…..but few succeed.
Of course it’s all relative. You only need something when you have had some taste of whatever it is. Wanting is quite different. It’s a much more basic thing. I wanted to read a porn mag one day. I read that porn mag and lit up my imagination and these days, I feel I need what I had read about, which was cuckolding on a very basic level. How did my need bring me to this site and others with similar themes? I fed that need by searching for more material relating to that initial hit. More dedicated material. In the here and now and after a good few relationships I found a wife who I felt I was at least able to communicate my needs to, even if she isn’t going to fully indulge me……yet!
My mind has been conditioned by myself, to think that I now need this whole journey to come to some conclusion. To be cuckolded and in the fullest sense. I am addicted to the idea of being a cuckold and I can’t see that ever changing. Not while ever I can become physically aroused by the idea. I’ve given account on here of my journey with my wife. For the moment it is on hold though. Stange as it may seem, my wife has actually come around to my way of thinking. We are currently looking for another woman to cuckquean my wife with. This is obviously something that I would like to try. If we have any success then maybe my wife will be enough at ease to finally cuckold me in one way or another in the future.
We have talked, role played and more. We love each other and trust each other. When she pulled the plug on the cuckolding plan, metaphorically speaking we weren’t quite prepared to take the leap off of the cliff but I didn’t hold it against her and look how things have panned out. We have found another strap in our parachute to double check. Maybe soon we wil do the jump!
For some, the excitement overrides the danger and for a select few, with great planning, danger is negated and euphria is attained.

Matt.