Cycles of hotwife feelings

I’ve found my wifes interest in the lifestyle seems to go through phases, I don’t know if that’s common or not.

Sometimes we’ll go for months of just doing “ordinary” things. She’ll just talk about the little ones clubs, school, friends, money, jobs on the house, family, all the usual things. She won’t have much interest in sex and subjects like bulls and cuckolding won’t come up at all.

Then out of the blue we’ll be in bed or something and she’ll suddenly just ask me about some bull and how she misses talking to him or how some guy working on the house or some guy she’s met through some social circle looks like he’d make a great bull and what a few hours in bed with him would be like. She enjoys humiliation fun so she’ll usually pick up the smile on my face and carry on with something like “what? I can’t help it, its not like you’d satisfy me”.

We made a commitment maybe 6 months ago that I wouldn’t have sex with her anymore. She is actually highly sexed but we found that I enjoy being deprived of sex and she enjoys seeing me deprived and frankly while she loves me to bits she finds her sexual urges are always towards other men.

But those cycles can be confusing and frustrating because sometimes she’s just so eager for a bull then life takes over and she doesn’t mention it leaving me wondering if she’s lost interest until months later when she’s horny for some bull action again. I sometimes wonder if its my fault because I never press her in any direction, I just let her lead. I’ve avoided pushing her towards the lifestyle, I’ve only suggested ideas so I know her passion for the lifestyle is her own passion and not something just to please me.