Our life and Interpretations of wife's behavior

1/10/2018

We have been married for just over 7 years and I would estimate that the below experience(s) have been going on for approximately 2-3 years. The relationship did not start that way, which from what I have been reading, is not a far cry from reality. We used to fuck all the time and she would be going crazy. She used to love to have me fuck her face and force my cock down her throat until she would gag and almost to the point of puking. This occurred on the second day I had met her.

Other than the sexual issues, I love my wife dearly. I could not have picked a better companion, mother to our children as well as all of the support that I have ever needed.

Needless to say, I had no idea whatsoever that after 7 years of marriage that our sex life would become what it has. I know that it might sound cruel, however, if I knew that this is what our sex life would have become, I would have had serious reservations about marrying her. Now in order to release I masturbate and cum on her face, tits or pussy while she is sleeping. She hasn’t spoken to me about this, which is odd, because I don’t see anyway of not knowing what has happened considering she wakes up with crusty cum filled hair. I believe this to be a result of her wanting me to masturbate, whatever the circumstances, so that she will not have to have sex with me. (I don’t know why, but I need to cum everyday or I become an impulsive horndog).

A quick thumbnail of our current life:

My wife is very uncomfortable sharing any sexual fantasies/wants/dissatisfactions, while I am willing to discuss anything sexually related with her (except this). Last night during intercourse, I whispered in her ear what she fantizes about while we are having sex. She became very angry and said that she doesn’t feel comfortable telling me such things. I asked why and said it was due to some insecurities that she had. She did not tell me what the insecurities were when asked, however, she has told me on multiple occasions that black men have hit on her, never once saying that a white man has done so. She also briefly dated a black man in college.

Interesting experience happened when the fucking became harder. I said to her that she deserved a big dick that would completely fill up her pussy. She became very wet. The wetness abated as the sex continued, so I decided to resume talking about big dicks. I repeated the above comment and then proceeded to ask her if she was thinking about that big dick fucking her and she began to moan and say yes. I have never felt her pussy that wet before. We then moved to a spooning position and she asked if my dick was in. It definitely was – I was obviously thrusting. Mind you this is following the comments about big cocks. I don’t know if this was a hint to the big cock conversation or not. Knowing her, I don’t know, however, it seems too convenient to say something like that after I was talking about big cocks.

I know that she is thinking of someone/something because she now closes her eyes the entire time we are engaged in sexual activity. She has stopped moaning and expressing pleasure when we are intimate. She has begun to lay like a “dead fish” which leads me to believe that she isn’t satisfied sexually as well as being uninterested in sex with me.
I have never felt inadequate until recently. I would like to hear both men’s and women’s perspectives to my wife’s behavior and my interpretations of said behaivor. Also, I would also love to hear your perspective on how to slowly proceed in revealing this scenario. I have read the guides, etc., however, I know that she will not be amused by a black black dildo. I am going to try interracial porn with her next. Should I “accidentally” leave an interracial porn DVD in plain sight as if I forgot to hide it? Should I “accidentally” leave this site on her computer?

To discreetly test the waters, I purposely did not orgasm, and concentrated on losing my erection. Thinking about the office work that I needed to get done this week as well as taking Austin Power’s advice about thinking about Bea Arthur naked on a cold day (haha). Amazing how that made my dick limp.

I have been interested in the topic of cuckolding for sometime now, but have not discussed this with my wife. I occasionally drop hints such as: asking her if the black man on the TV show we are watching is hot; telling her that he probably has a big dick. I thought this may subteblely allow her to talk about it in a non-sexual way, even if she was thinking that inside.

Questions:

1. I am extremely confused as to if I am reading her signals/attitudes correctly
2. If you do believe that this is something that she seems interested in, how should I carefully proceed.
3. Anything else that you think I am not picking up on, would be appreciated as well.

I request the opinions of both men and women experienced in cuckolding and/or those still attempting to convince their significant other that this is what they want.

I thank you in advance for the comments and advice that you have given.

Best regard,

Jack from Phoenix, AZ