Reply To: Admitting my inferiority to myself

I think I accepted being an inferior lover the first time I caught my wife cheating with a much older man. She had been cheating with him for two years before it came out in the open. I knew in my heart of hearts my wife preferred a much more aggressive man than me, but for her to be satisfied by a man so much older than either of us, was a very humbling experience to say the least. We fought about it at first, then I told her I did not want our marriage to end and that if she needed extramarital activity to satisfy her needs, I was ok with it. At first she was dead set against it. I knew she changed her mind when we went to a holiday house party a few months later. She was talking to a guy one of our friends brought with him. It did not take long for her to start openly flirt with him. It was so obvious that a few of our lady friends asked me what was going on with my wife and the other guy. I just told them she had a few drinks and was being friendlier than usual.
That was the night I realized in her eyes I would always be inferior to her lovers.
That was many years ago and now when we are out together and she so callously flirts with another man I love it. I get so excited I want to jerk off right there.