Experiment: Pt. 5

About two weeks ago, or so, she mentioned she really loves where things are in our arrangement. I don’t know what the future holds, but I do know that she does not want things to go back to the way they used to be between us. She has stated that it feels much better to be exclusive to her boyfriend. And that it feels more appropriate that her and I no longer engage in sex, regardless of her relationship status regarding a boyfriend.

She explained, from the very first time she and her now bf engaged in sex with one another she noticed something different with him. But thought nothing of it. But as time progressed, and we engaged in more and more threesomes throughout the weeks of those first two months, she continued to notice those connections with him. And, by the third month, she started visiting him a couple of times a week during her lunch break. And that’s when she noticed it was more than just the thrill of being in a threesome that cause that connection and flow between them. Which is why by the end of the third month, she wanted to experiment being exclusive with him.

I too had noticed the flow between them the first time we were all together. I was not aware of the reasons why, but I did notice. However, knowing what I know now, it is no surprise that we are where we are, now

I told her I wouldn’t want things to go back to the way they were. Even if they did break up. Especially after seeing what she has had with him. Even with my new found love and appreciation for her, I know it would not mean as much to her.

I told her that I could see from day one that they had a different connection. And I watched as that blossomed into her developing feelings for him. And then those feelings developed into love, and then from Love it developed into very deep passionate love. Deeper love than she has ever had for me. She then asked if I was ever scared witnessing all of this. I explained to her, there are times when I do get a little scared, but I know that we have talked about these things, and I know that regardless of how involved you get with him, it will not affect us.

She then affirmed that she does indeed love him very deeply. More than she’s ever loved anyone. But, no matter how deeply she loves him, she will never leave me, because I still provide something only a husband can provide.

I explained to her that I appreciated her honesty, affirmation, and reassurance. And explain that no matter what happens with her and her boyfriend, I still know that what she has with him is very special, and I would never want to stand in the way of that. And seeing how she is with him, and seeing what she has experienced with him, I know it wouldn’t feel right for her to experience anything else. Which, is why I am completely fine with us never having sex again.

She thanked me gratefully, and explained that her love for him comes from and unexplained natural connection she has with him mentally and emotionally. It was always there from the start, and it wasn’t until she was able to begin having one-on-one time with him during her lunch breaks that she was able to realize what it was. And once they began having those one-on-one times, is when she really notice her connection with him grow without limit oh, and it’s something that she just can’t help.

I then asked her if she knew how much she loved him, and how much more she loves him. And she responded that she really didn’t know. It wasn’t something she could really put a number on. But she knows that her love for him is unmatched. She then asked if I was mad or hurt. And I told her that I was neither. That I I understand. Because I’m not blind or stupid. I can see it for myself. I’m just happy that she was honest with me. And as long as she never leaves me I am completely fine with where we are.

It was a very emotional conversation we had that night. And, even though there are some couples in this lifestyle who would disagree with the way my fiance and I practice our path in this lifestyle oh, it works for us. I said before, I am completely happy knowing that my fiance loves her boyfriend as deeply as she does. I consider myself very lucky because of that fact. And she knows it. And, at the end of that conversation we were both very happy and we both orgasmed very hard.