Reply To: Her lover move in during quarantine

Day 20. This past week I just haven’t felt like writing much. Wayne and Jenn are more of a couple than me and her now. I’m coming to terms with it but it’s still hard at times seeing their relationship strengthen in and out of the bedroom. Jenn has spoken with me privately about her feelings toward Wayne. Yes, she still loves me and wants me as her husband and best friend. But that’s about it. Her talks with me have been piercingly honest and has hit me every which way. Mentally (sadness, excitement, confusion, jealousy, anger, acceptance), physically (nausea, shaking, almost constant erections, insomnia, need for activity to calm my mind), and spiritually (faith in my marriage as it changes ebbs and flows, self doubt).
Jenn confessed that during our dating and married years she enjoyed sex with me but rarely orgasmed and faked them most of the time to end the sessions. She never had multiple O’s with me. She found private release with her vibrator when she had the need to cum. She told me that she keep this a secret in fear of hurting my feelings and was OK with my lack of ability.
A couple nights ago Wayne had to work late so Jenn and I were allowed to be intimate. I was ready for a hardcore night. I had not been inside her in over 2 weeks! Over wine Jenn and I spoke about our feelings and I confessed I felt inferior to Wayne in so many ways. Jenn agreed he offers superiority over me. During their first encounters before he moved away Jenn told me she came every time with him and usually 3-4 orgasms per date night. When he moved she felt so bad she spoke with a therapist but never told me. She had thoughts of leaving me and moving to be with him. Thankfully (for me) the therapist was on my side and felt it best for Jenn to stay with me and just bask in the memories.
Our night together was mostly talk until very late. Jenn and I got in bed. She wore a pair of panties Wayne gifted her, no bra, her “W” belly ring.
She snuggled next to me. I reached into her panties.
“Just a little bit Dave. One finger only.”
My index finger found dryness and her clit was small. I went to lick my finger but Jenn ask me to stop. She just wanted to touch me and go to sleep.
I was taken back. I thought this would be a night for us to have sex but Jenn said she didn’t want to go all the way and was happy to touch me though.
“Roll on your back”
I did and she got some baby oil on her had and sat us cross-legged next to my hip. Her hand was cold but warmed up as she pumped my penis. A few tugs later and I had a weak orgasm. Cum just oozed instead of shooting. I went soft right away. She handed me a few Kleenex and rolled over and turned off the light/
“good night Dave. I love you”
“I love you too”
That was the last time we slept together and the last time I came.