Exp, professional, BLK DOM BULL. New here

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It ended because of a woman I was dating that found out about this part of my life. To make it short. Caused drama that neither my cuck cpl or the woman deserved. I definitely misjudged the complexity and unique dynamic of an ongoing cuckold situation. As a bull that is ” single” you can’t always have your cake and eat it too ; ).

Never the less the cpl and I are still able to exchange emails. I can’t sincerely say that I am ready ( or ever will be) able to be exclusive to with just the sub wife I own. Safety is an obvious concern for any cpl and most exp and mature bulls in this lifestyle. I found I was more at ease with the idea of breeding her( bare) and sending her home. I have never been the type of Bull to put anyone at risk. So, my sub was the only one I would fuck and seed bare. That was also my way of showing a deeper ( commitment) to her and his safety. Our relationship.

But the bigger issue was the long term expectations, challenges. And to be brutally honest, feeling. It can be fun to fantasize and chat about various scenarios. But in the real world, it can be very difficult for all. Esp the bull who is NOT the husband but is asked to be a second, committed and monogamous lover. I am not saying that any lines were crossed. Lets just say I ” cared” more than I was use to. Hubby had no problem with this and even welcomed and encouraged it towards me. But WE had to also be more realistic than our kinky male minds were sometimes. Lol. .

And my sub wife also started to expect a more monogamous commitment in bed. She was not the one to tell me this nor was it what I expected in the beginning. I was use to meeting cpls once, a few times or a semi-casual or on and off thing. Nothing to personal expected or displayed.

So.. I am in limbo. Love being a bull and I know I am fucking good at it ; ) lmao.