So close but so far

My wife is currently having dinner with her lover she has been with him all afternoon. I am staying in the same hotel. She shares everything with me but he is not ready to meet me yet although he knows everything about me. He isn’t a typical ‘bull’ he is having an affair his wife doesn’t know and my wife and I are managing to help with the secrecy. I have checked in to the same hotel to provide an alibi for her for her family and as a rescue service should his wife do anything to find out. This is real hard tonight another 10 feet and I would be directly under their bed! Really want to see her but he isn’t ready and frankly don’t know if he ever will be. Hate the term cuckold my wife is a HotWife entirely with my trust and encouragement and facilitation . She struggles sometimes as she now reckons I am able to love her physically as well as him. Suspect this isn’t true he is better endowed than me for sure and has not been damaged by radiation and surgery. He doesn’t need drugs and a pump to be able to perform as I do. Writing calms me it is early yet!