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    • Selenenoir
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        October 3, 2025 at 7:59 am
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        #98928

        I am a 41-year-old Italian woman, married for about fifteen years to a wonderful man whom I love deeply. My husband has welcomed and raised my son as his own, and there is no reason in the world why I would ever want to lose him. Our emotional bond is incredibly strong, but on a sexual level, we have always faced significant difficulties: he suffers from impotence, has very premature ejaculation, and extremely small dimensions, which have always prevented me from experiencing pleasure during our intimacy. Despite this, I never thought of seeking someone else, because our connection goes far beyond anything else.

        A few weeks ago, however, I experienced a moment of weakness with a 32-year-old man who works for us. With him, I felt sensations I could never have imagined: he overwhelmed me, filled me inside, leaving me with a sense of total fullness, as if I were completely satisfied in every part of me. I felt all his strength and desire within me, and it was a total surrender—an experience that left a profound mark on me. For the first time in my life, I experienced multiple orgasms and such overwhelming pleasure that it shook every certainty I had.

        In the past, my husband and I had touched upon the topic of cuckolding: he was curious and, in part, intrigued, but he had always said that, if it were to happen, it should only be with a stranger and far from our everyday life. I know he would never accept the idea of involving someone we know, let alone one of his employees.

        Yet I find myself torn, between my deep love for my husband and the overwhelming attraction I feel toward this man. It is the first time I have experienced such an intense conflict: I feel like I need both, but I truly do not know how to proceed.

      • Linda & david
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          October 3, 2025 at 2:23 pm
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          #98933

          Keep communication with your husband open and be honest.
          We began this journey after my wife had an affair with a younger man.
          We worked through it and by being honest with each other, we were better prepared when they reconnected some years later.
          That turned into an affair that lasted almost two years

        • uhohithinkiwantherto
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            October 3, 2025 at 3:53 pm
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            #98934

            If your husband truly loves you, he absolutely should want you to be and feel fulfilled in every possible way. He certainly understands that he is not providing that fulfillment for you sexually, as he is open to cuckolding. He just needs to be convinced that this particular partner is the key to unlocking that satisfaction for you.

            It should not be that difficult to have a lie-down in bed with him where you explain that you do want more sexual satisfaction in your life and want to reopen the discussion about cuckolding. Explain that although you know he said it should be with a “stranger”, you never really were drawn that way because you need not just some initial attraction and wham-bam sex, but a bit of time to allow the attraction to grow to feel true satisfaction and you do not get that with a stranger far away from your everyday life. Then ask him “don’t you want me to be sexually fulfilled?” and ask if maybe he would be willing to rethink the stranger requirement.

            If you are stroking his dick while you have this discussion, there is an excellent chance that it will be rock hard and leaky by this point in the conversation. You can point that out, and say that his “truth detector” seems to agree that you should be able to date people other than strangers if you are attracted to them. He will have a very “hard” time disagreeing.

            Then you can suggest some men you know as potential partners, including this 32 year old hunk, and say you have found yourself sexually attracted to him lately. My guess is his dick will be ready to explode and you can easily get him to agree.

            Good luck!

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