Reply To: How we began

Thank you for the questions which I shall answer and expand upon.

Firstly, we would like children – both of us and maybe this year we shall take the plunge. Susy wants to become a mother and I have agreed to do more of my share of child rearing, especially so that Susy and her lover have time to evolve their mutual love. And I really want to see Susy pregnant, swelling with his baby. We speculate about the future: the child will be registered with me as the father, but will, when appropriate, be told who their biological dad is – of course it will be Roger.

If we have a boy, will he grow to be an alpha male or a beta / cuckold? If a girl, will she take after her mother – a strong leader who loves sex? We wait with anticipation. One thing is certain. Roger will be the actual father – it is his right as Susy’s sexual partner. And I will remain supportive.

The other question is: ‘am I caged’? Simply, NO. I am now 100% ‘pussy free’ and that means for Susy and for any other woman. I am trusted completely. Both Susy and Roger know that I get hard even thinking about them making love, and seeing them is explosive. I am permitted to masturbate, but if we are all together, I must not shoot on their bodies, ever.

How and why I became denied is another story. Susy (probably with her lover’s advice) and once it was in the open between us, didn’t want my sperm in her body. She was, and still is, on the birth control pill, but wanted to reserve that pleasure and privilege for Roger; and quite rightly. He was giving her wonderful sex and was a much more prolific cummer than me. So, from the start, she insisted I wear a condom for sex (albeit a rare event), even though Roger was free to pump his load into her. The other thing they introduced was a 48-hour rule: I was not allowed near her for two whole days before Susy was due to see Roger (she wanted to feel fresh and tight for him). Naturally, as they became closer, that became more frequent, and I was granted access less and less.

Eventually, I decided that I could manage without the pressure of matching up to his performance and was becoming more ‘in tune’ with their love making. About two months after Roger came to ours to fuck Susy, I approached her and nervously asked if she would mind me becoming celibate. She quizzed me at length and eventually said she would be delighted, provided I was perfectly celibate – no penetration with her or any other woman. We kissed and agreed. It was an emotional moment.

The next day we made some changes to the sleeping arrangements. The main bedroom became ‘hers’, and we bought a new single bed for me in the spare room.

Becoming fully denied was a bit strange at first, but I soon adjusted to it. I masturbate frequently and am now a ‘cunt worshipper’. That became more relevant when I started cleaning duties nearly a year into our journey. Perhaps something to expand upon next time.