Dating

Hello all,

     I never wrote before this. But other than fantsey with my wife in bed, We never went as far as we are now. I like i believe others been doing only kept this is a bedroom fantsey life. But we took steps to make this real. We went on dating services just to see the responses we get. We spoke to men on line just to see the respponses we get . Well in our exploration. We met a ( as my wife says, ) a very confident manly hottie. He was very witty and easy to talk to. anyway my wife and I wrote to him on line, then spoke on the telephone.  my wife and him met in the city for coffee one afternoon during the work week. She said she liked him. He was ” easy on the eyes” and made her laugh. They made arrangements to go on a first date. I met him in person when he came to my home to pick my wife up for their date. The date was last saturday night. For 2 days before, We both were anxious. For a week before, It was impossible for me to think of nothing else. That afternoon as my wife was getting ready, I was really shaking. I attempted to help my wife get ready for her big night. We picked out clothing for her to wear. She was teasing me alot. Saying things like ” do you think I should wear underwear? We both knew it was a first date and there was not to be any sex. But it was on my mind. anyway, WhenI met him , he was very nice. We spoke a bit, I don't really remember what we spoke about but he was easy to talk too. As they left, I remember saying ” have a good time” I remember saying that because as they left, i remember thinking did I really want them to have a good time? I did and I didn't.  Anyway for a few hours, I was going crazy. I was anxious, excited , and scared. We won't go into what I did during that time and how many times I did it.

      When my wife and her new ” Boy Friend” came home I felt some relief. They spoke of how nice a time they had, I was included in this conversation. Now I forget when But all of a sudden , I felt I was in the way.  I felt a need to walk away, I am not sure how or why I felt this way , But as I did , I saw they started to kiss. He had my wife against the wall and kissed her. It was a very passionate looking kiss. My wife told me if she was not against the wall, she would have been on the floor, because her legs were weak and giving out. It got me hot to just watch. I still weirded out at myself for I do not know what got into me to know to walk away. Its as if I realize I needed to let them kiss alone. As if it was not my business. anyway my wife was smiling after he left. She said He was a perfect gentileman. He was very confident, nice and sexy. She admitted that she wanted to see him again. She added during our sex time that he was very well endowed. I asked her after how did she know. She just answered a girl knows how to check those things out. Anywaythey have another date schedule for Sunday night. It was diffuclt to find a time due to the holiday weekend. My wife is concern over anything being open, But she and he wanted to meet again. So Here I am , again I am so very excited, anxious, scared and horny. All at the same time. I don't know what to do with myself. But it helps talking about it. It is why I am writing for the first time ever on this site. I have a great need to tell others. Well I will now try to get on with the rest of my life, No matter how hard that is to do right now. It would help to have feedback. Please feel free to let me know your thoughts. Bye  for now.

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