Humiliation = emotion pain = being a loving, caring, considerate cuck husband

To spend the day with a very close friend who had that very night and that very morning fucked your wife as you lay listening, is a strange unbalancing experience, especially when you know it is going to happen again imminently. To look back on that day soon afterward, having only later found out that she had provided her anus to him on both occasions, only enflamed the sense of hurt, pain, jealousy and humiliation. It was almost as if he had kept this from you, nonsense of course, but the feeling remained. For her to give her anus to him and let him cum in her anus was something she no longer provided to her husband. It was here and with him that she now secured her more wanton pleasures and fulfilled her needs as a vibrant sensual woman. Additional humiliation came from my very own thoughts and recollections, what was Nic thinking as we talked about everyday things that day? Was he enjoying knowing she had provided her anus to him, but keeping the knowledge to himself at that moment. Had he enjoyed it as she had demanded he use it, fill it, pleasure it in an extreme depraved expression of their urgent need for each other.

Yet the experience only deepened my love and my sense of belonging to my wife. I am sure that it also strengthened her love for me. Together with her lover she had expressed and enjoyed her wonderful sexuality and indirectly I had provided that self believe for her to act out her needs. I had not simply made a decision to do so, but through our common yet differing needs we provided to each other, we were a perfect match. I needed to be a cuck and she needed to be desired, wanted and loved by someone else other than me, People who are not wired like us do not understand that this scenario strengthens our respect, love and caring for each other, not weaken it.

It is also crucial to understand that feeling humiliated by my close friend and my wife is exactly what I sort before the event. The deep feeling of humiliation, the deeper the better, providing the emotional hurt that I actually crave to fulfil me as a cuck. The emotional pain fuels the sexual pleasure, the sexual pleasure establishing my cuck position. I write this and say that I am grateful to them both for being confident enough to express their individual desires for each other, knowing that I enjoy them doing so, even if it is done so through emotional pain and conflict on my behalf. The conflict and pain “is” the pleasure for me. Their acts allow me the emotional and sexual experience that I need to feel. My Cuckoldress realises that humiliation is fundamental to me being her cuckold and is what provides me enjoyment and pleasure through the very pain and turmoil of it. The deeper the hurt and humiliation the better and more bonding the experience, the closer the cuck comes to his cuckoldress, and the more he craves her. The feelings this generates, my very need to protect and provide for her, simply fuel my needs as a man. I am extremely grateful to her as she fulfils me as she fulfils herself…….