My Story (Sharing some moments)

My wife is spending the weekend with her ex, starting this past Friday night, while I have their kids here along with my own kids for a change. Their kids think their mother, my wife, is spending the weekend with her parents. But she is getting fucked by their father. I have to admit it is driving me crazy thinking about them fucking, as that is the plan of course for this weekend. Where are they doing it, how often, is she sucking him (of course), is he licking and eating out her cunt (of course)? It is one thing to be present during their sexual encounters but not seeing it I think is much harder. Yes I gave them a weekend away awhile back, sort of a reenactment of their wedding night, on their anniversary and that was hard to handle, but it was something I initiated. This weekend was his idea and my wife agreed to it. When I look at their kids this weekend I can only picture their mother and father fucking to create them. I find my cock is hard and I have to make sure I am hiding my erection. I have to admit I have masturbated 5 times so far, 3 times yesterday just to keep my cock flaccid. Sometimes this lifestyle is hard to handle emotionally. Sexually it is intense and I enjoy it I have to admit.

I thought I would share a recent experience in this forum that I have also privately shared with a special friend I have found on this site. He has helped me in my journey more than he possibly knows. I value his friendship, guidance and support.

I have been anxiously waiting to find the time to tell you all of the details about Christmas eve and Christmas day with the ex.
He arrived with their kids around 7 pm on Christmas Eve. We sat around as a family, which I know their kids love and I cannot blame them. I have a great relationship with their kids and they call me Pop. Of course Dad is reserved for their father. (As a side note, I still feel like a knife goes through my heart when I hear my own kids call my ex-wife’s husband Dad. I found out long ago that he insisted that they call him Dad. I wanted to tell my kids I did not like it, that they should call him by his first name, with or without Mr., but they had already been through enough with the contentious divorce they had to live through.)
Anyway the adults had drinks, the kids hot chocolate. It was a fun evening, but there was definitely sexual tension, or at least I know I felt it. We watched the Polar Express and then the kids went to bed. Both my wife and her ex put them to bed while I added more wood on the fire. We had more drinks and I can tell you we were feeling no pain. He said he was getting hot from the fire and off came his shirt, exposing his bare muscular chest. I have to admit he has a hot chest, I could feel my cock becoming engorged. I suggest if he was so hot, maybe he should just remove his pants, which he quickly did. There he was, naked except for his boxers, which were covered in those red lips. Any question what he was after??
Yes their kids were upstairs, yes it was risky, but too much alcohol and extreme horniness does make us do risky things.
It was quite evident he had an erection, pushing against the boxers, make the slit in the front gap open so you could see part of the shaft.
I know I was being naughty, but I said to my wife that it looked like someone needed some attention. Before I knew it my wife pulled down his boxers, exposing that beautiful rock hard cock, those big balls just hanging down between his legs and she took his cock in her mouth. I could barely breath. As you may have read in one of my post that I still find my wife sucking his cock somehow more difficult to watch as a husband then when he puts his cock in her and fucks her. I guess sucking his cock seems more intimate to me. I know that it sounds fucked up.
Anyway, as she sucked him, he was playing with her tits through her shirt, which he soon pulled off of her. Sometime while they were putting the kids to bed, I did not realize my wife had removed her bra. As he removed her shirt, her tits where exposed, those sexy beautiful nipples engorged. I watched as he cupped and squeezed her tits. She went back down on him. Soon he had her stop, pushed her gently onto her back on the couch and quickly removed her pants. There she laid, naked except for red panties. And just as quickly he removed those red panties, her hips lifted slightly so they could be slid over her round ass, and he tossed them to me. As I was holding those panties, he went down on her. I watched as he kissed her clit, used his tongue to lick her, his fingers to spread her pussy lips as he tongue fucked her.
Thank god the kids did not come down as none of us would have noticed.
Soon, I saw my wife’s body tense, her hips rise up so he could get his tongue in her pussy, her back arch so that her tits slid slightly to each side. I was a beautiful sight. And her body shook as she came. He kept tongue fucking her even as she tried to get him to stop. I knew it was a very intense orgasm she was having. When he stopped, he climbed up over her. I could see his arm muscles bulge as he held himself over her. His cock was aiming for that cunt. I could tell he would need no adjustment to penetrate her. I watched as his big cock head slid between those pussy lips disappearing inside, followed by the entire shaft. My wife still reacts when his cock penetrates her, like it is too big for her to take at first. Then he lowered himself onto her, his chest pressed against her tits, his hips working as he fucked her. In and out, in and out, thrusting slow and fast, slow and fast. I still get mesmerized watching them fuck, so much so in times like this I forget to pull my cock out and stroke it when I have not already been naked.
They fucked, and I have to admit they have a special rythym fucking, as if they are one. I wonder if my wife and I have that when we fuck.
The fucking intensified and he has such amazing stamina. Soon he was pounding her, pushing himself more over top of her so that I know his cock shaft was rubbing her, more a downward penetration. And there is was, her second orgasm. She cried out, grabbing his back, her legs lifting up to encircle his back. In this position, I could see part of his cock shaft fucking, his balls slapping her ass with each thrust. Soon I could tell he would not last much longer and he orgasmed, shooting his hot seed deep inside of her. Not sure if I mentioned it, but he produces quite the load. When he stopped cumming, they laid there naked together, exhausted from the fucking. I just watched. (Later I would find I had produced quite a bit of precum in my briefs.)

When he got off of her, there was that beautiful semi-hard cock, glistening, hanging down over his balls. He sat back, his legs spread exposing everything to me, laying his head back on the couch, closing his eyes. He got what he wanted.
My wife quickly slipped on her pants and shirt and went upstairs to check on the kids. I guess she and I came to our senses and worried about what they may have heard. But he, like me I guess after sex, did not seem worried about the kids.
With my wife gone, I sat there just staring at his naked body, his cock. Finally he opened his eyes, looked at me and said you can have it if you want. (Fuck I wanted it) I got up, knelt down in front of him, lifted his slight damp cock and as I took it into my mouth, I could smell my wife, I could taste my wife and of course I could smell and taste his cum. He did not get really hard or cum, but he sat back enjoying having his cock in my mouth.
Soon after we were getting the presents for his kids and mine under the tree. We were all dressed and respectable again.
As it turned out and as I am sure you can guess, this was only the beginning.

I was not sure I wanted to share the following in a public forum. It is something I shared with someone who I consider to be a special friend of mine in my journey. A person who has helped me to be open to new experiences and seek out what I crave, but in a very careful thought out way. There is more to what lead to what I am about to share, so this was not some reckless thing, but something well thought out, agonized over, but in the end, somethings I needed to do.

Yesterday afternoon I left work early and went to my wife’s ex house. (If you have been following my journey, I am a cuckold, with my wife fucking her ex husband.)I knew he has been working from home. (By the way he did stop by our house over a week ago for a quickie with wife. Fucked, came and left.)
He was surprised to see me but let me in. I said hi and he said is there something you wanted to suck on. (I have sucked him before.) I smiled and said that is why I was there. He smiled and headed to the bedroom. Even though I have sucked him before, for some reason my heart was pounding in my chest.
Without hesitation, he pulled his pants off, slid down his boxers, sat on the bed and spread his legs. He was already hard. Needless to say I was soon on my knees with his cock in my mouth.
While I was sucking him he told me that I was actually a much better cock sucker than ”our” wife. I honestly felt proud of that compliment but it felt odd to hear him call my wife, ”our” wife. Yes she was his wife and now she is my wife, but our wife. How did I feel about that?
But I let it go, enjoying his cock. Then I got bold (I could hear my special friend in my head telling me to be bold).
I took his cock out of my mouth, still holding the shaft in one hand and said well maybe I might be a better fuck too. (yes I actually said that.)
He said, I highly doubt that, our wife is a hot fuck, with a hot cunt.
I said, well there is only one way to find out.
He looked at me. Quickly said you know I am not a fag. I said I know that. He said not sure I want to fuck a dude. I said you would only being fucking the guy you made a cuckold.
You want me to fuck you, he asked.
I have to admit I was still not sure I wanted this, but again I thought of my discussions with my friend. I could hear him encouraging me and honestly there was a part of me that did not want to disappoint him.
I said yes.
Without a word, he got up, strip naked and stood over me. I got up, slowly strip naked. I stood there, naked, my cock hard. He was hard (and I was so turned on by his hot naked body, that big thick cock, those low hanging balls. Yes at the moment I could honestly say I was gay at that moment. Not a gay man, but definitely turned on by a man.)
We stood looking at each other for a few minutes. Finally I said where do you want me. He told me to get on the bed, doggy position. He was ready to get on the bed and I remembered what my friend said about being fucked and told he would need lube.
With lube in hand, he got behind me. Even though he had not even touched me with any part of his body, I could sense him and his body. Of course I was intensely aware of his weight on the mattress. Could feel body heat from him. This must be what it feels like to be a woman who is getting fucked for the first time. The anticipation, the hesitation, the apprehension of what it was going to feel like.
I could not believe this was going to happen, that he really was going to fuck me.
I could tell he was lubing that cock and then I felt one of his hands on my ass as he slid closer to me. He pushed his legs between mine and used them to push my legs apart. Then I felt his hand spreading my ass checks, exposing my ass hole, the hole he was going to fuck. I think I was holding my breath. I could not move.
Then I knew he was positioning his cock ( I had seen him do it several times as he fucked my wife in this position.)
Then I felt his cock head, that big fucking cock head.
Without thinking, I quickly said, just take it slow.
I felt the pressure, oh god it was at first uncomfortable and then it hurt. He had penetrated that cock head in me. My body reacted and I pulled off.
He said maybe we should not be doing this. I quickly responded, no it would be okay, just need a minute and since I have never been fucked, just take it slow.
I got back in position. I think my cock went limp not only because of the initial pain but the fear he would go through with it.
But he got back in the position, he put more lube on his cock, and I could feel that cock head against my hole.
He took his time, I felt the initial penetration, the cock head slowing pushing in, forcing me to open. it was better this time, but it still was uncomfortable and it hurt, but I just let it happen. I think he sensed the tension in my body and I knew he stopped the penetration, holding his cock head and I think part of the shaft in me. Then I could feel movement, he was slowly penetrating me further. It did not seem to hurt any worse. I just breathed, thought of his beautiful cock in me. I know he was not that far in me, but I could feel movement, this time a slight withdraw, he stopped and then I could feel movement again, this time pushing in. The pain, the discomfort was less I noticed. Obviously I could not see what he was doing (if only I could have witnessed my fucking along with experiencing my fucking) but I believe he pushed a little bit further in each time. Then I felt the fucking motion, pushing in, pulling back, gentle. I was being fucked, I expected my cock to be rock hard, but it was only semi hard. I was aroused, I was fucking aroused, but not rock hard. Is that normal?
I looked at my cock, and saw I had precum from the tip of my cock hanging down to my inner thigh.
The fucking became a little faster. He had his hands on my hips as he was fucking me. And then I felt this great push and realized he had fully penetrated me. It took my breath away for a moment but I felt okay. Slight jerk of the body, enough that he asked if I was okay. I said I was fine, it felt fucking good.
From there my fucking really took off. Intense, slow, intense slow. I could feel the power in his hands as he gripped my hips, using them as leverage as he fucked me. I could feel those balls slapping against my balls, my ass. I could hear him breathing hard, slightly moaning. Since I have seen him fuck my wife I knew exactly how he was reacting. The tenseness in his body, his chest muscles, the look on his face, how his breath intensifies. He was in the zone.
As for me, I was loving it, yes loving it. It was such an intimate moment and I felt fulfilled, truly submissive. I could feel my cock, I was so horny and suddenly realized that I was oozing cum from my cock. I looked down and there was cum sliding out my my cock. Not an orgasm load, but cum. With nothing touching my cock, I was producing cum. I realized he had to be hitting my prostate.
Then he suddenly started pounding me, grabbing my hips to the point it actually hurt, his breathing intensifying I knew, I knew what was going to happen.
With the most animalistic sound I have ever heard from him, he grunted and I knew he was cumming, cumming inside of me. His cock was shoved all the way in me.
I could picture him, his hands on my hips, his body arched slightly back, spasming, his head slightly back. His body gets like a solid rock when he cums and he has such intense body spasms. He has a complete body orgasm. It is more than just his cock shooting out his cum.
Like he does when he fucks my wife, he suddenly leaned over me, draping his body on mine, his cock deep inside me, his arms by my sides holding himself up over me, but leaning his body against mine. I could feel the weight of his body. I felt so many emotions, but one of them was I felt passion for him.
I think he must have suddenly realized his cock was in a man, that he was having body to body contact with a man, because he quickly jerked up, pulled out of me and got out of bed.
I turned and laid on my back in his bed, looking at him. Everything okay I asked.
He said yeah yeah fuck man, I just have to wrap my head around the fact that I just fucked a dude.
I quickly said I am glad he did, that it was incredible and he was an incredible fucker.
I knew he was freaking out. Normally his cock stays semi-hard for a long time after cumming, but he was totally limp. But even his limp cock is big and beautiful and it looks so good hanging down over his low hanging balls. He just looked at me for a moment and then said I am getting a shower. Let yourself out after you put yourself together.
He had to noticed the cum that had slid out my cock, as part of it was laying on my inner thighs. He also had to notice that my cock was also hard.
I watched him, his muscular back and firm ass, as he walked into the bathroom.
I laid there, in his bed, his seed in me. I found myself touching my cock. I was so horny. Without thinking I masturbated. I masturbated in his bed where I am sure he has masturbated as well. It did not take me long to cum (especially hearing the shower running and picturing him naked under the water).
But I sensed he wanted me to be gone. I felt dirty, sweaty, I could feel some slippage of his cum from my ass. But I quickly got dressed and left.
On the way home all I could think of was him fucking me, reliving it my mind. It was incredible.
When I got home I quickly went upstairs and jumped in the shower. My wife was curious why I had taken a shower and I just said it was a long day and it felt good to feel the warm water on my body. if she only knew I was touching myself all over in the shower remembering everything about that experience. I came again in the shower.

Another Holiday and another sleep over for my wife’s ex. With Easter today, and we had their kids here this weekend, my wife’s ex spent the night again, just like he did at Christmas time. I wonder if this will become a normal occurrence? Their kids think he sleeps in the guest room but he sleeps in our bed. I worry that they are going to find out, but so far so good.
He came over last night, we all had dinner together, a normal, though somewhat unorthodox, family dinner together. The mother, the father, the kids and the husband. Nothing strange about that right?
With the kids in bed, the three of us were in the family room. My wife in a sheer nightgown, no bra or panties, her ex in boxers, barechested and me just in lounge pants, commando. Risky with the kids in the house, but everything about this relationship is risky.
My wife and her ex, lounging on the couch, my wife laying back on him. I sit in a chair across from them. It seems to be my place, the observer.
It is not long before he is feeling up her tits, pinching the nipples through the sheer nightgown, making them hard, engorged. I feel my cock getting hard and I know his is hard, pressed against her backside. His right hand moves down her body and grabs the hem of her nightgown and pulls it up. He reaches down between her legs and begins rubbing her cunt, pushing a finger into her. I can see her body respond to him. It is like I am not there, they are getting in the zone. Two fingers in her, finger fucking her, the other hand fondling her tit, squeezing the nipple. He can be rough but my wife seems to respond to it. He continues until she cums. Seeing him making her cum always gives me mixed emotions. My cock is happy, but my head is sad. If anyone thinks being a cuckold is easy, they are sadly mistaken. Is is the male ego or male pride that causes me anguish when I see another man fulfilling my wife sexually? Doing things to her that I should be doing?

I rubbed myself while he was finger fucking her and I could feel my precum. Once her body relaxes, she sat up so he could slid off his boxers. Hard Hard Hard, that is all I can say about his cock at that moment. He has a beautiful masculine big thick cock, I have to admit. Though I am not tiny, his cock definitely is far superior to mine.

Seeing my wife take his cock in her mouth still is the hardest thing for me, maybe it always will be. She sucks him, he puts his hand on the back of her head, guiding her, grabbing her hair and forcing her to take him all the way into her mouth, down her throat. It has been a process watching my wife learn to deepthroat. It is not something she did with me, high gag reflex or she did not want to do it, I wonder. When he first started doing it and making her choke, I wanted him to stop but over time, I enjoyed seeing her struggle. Was that wrong?
But he taught her how to do it, to take his cock all the way in and down her throat. A couple of times he came down her throat. (Clearly when they were married, she never did it. As a husband, did he feel he could not be rough with her? )
But last night, he interupted the cocksucking, he clearly wanted to fuck her. Laying her back on the couch, he spread her legs, and climbed on top of her. Whether it is because I am there or it is something he likes to do (I need to ask my wife about it.), he always grabs his hard cock, lifts his body up slightly and positions his cock at her cunt. I have a clear view of it and watch as he pushes his cock in her. Then all I can see is his muscular ass muscles contracting and releasing as he fucks her. They kiss now, that was hard to take the first time, but they will kiss during intercourse. My wife’s body responds to him, they are in synch it seems. Soon the thrusting becomes intense, my wife’s arms tight around his back, her legs up, pressed against him. I know she is reaching that point again. I have seen it enough now, I can read her body. When I fuck her, she never cums, so my experience of her cumming is when I perform oral on her. It is different when she cums while being fucked.
It is like I know when she cums now, and she was cumming, crying out. It is almost like she is fighting him even though she wants him. Whether it has been a lack of sex or her deepthroating him, he cums almost at the same time. Usually he goes longer. I guess one could say they were in perfect synch sexually.

As for me I came, having slipped off my pants while they were fucking, and shooting my load on myself. I left them to get a towel for me and for my wife. Wiping myself off, I handed my wife a towel so his cum sliding out of her had a place to go.

Later we all went to bed, sleeping in the same bed. They fucked again while I laid there.

This morning we had Easter with their kids. Yes just a normal family morning.

It is amazing how many different experiences one can have in this cuckold lifestyle. Each has a different affect on me which you would think would no longer be occurring since I have been a cuckold for some time now and at the end of the day it is basically another man fucking my wife.

After dinner yesterday, I decided to take her kids out for ice cream before their dad, my wife’s ex and her lover, was scheduled to come to our house to pick them up. He is keeping them for the week through next weekend. My wife stayed behind as she had some things to do and also needed to make sure the kids had what they needed for the week.
I really like her kids and love how they call me Pop. We had fun together but when we came back home I saw that their dad’s car was in the driveway. He was not expected for another hour or so.

Suddenly I was panicked and did not want the kids going in the house. What if their parents were fucking in the family room or they heard them fucking up in the bedroom, or they were naked in the kitchen after fucking. But before I could react they were already out of the car and pushing the front door open.

It felt like I was in slow motion, running to the house to divert them if needed but hesitant to find them staring at their naked parents, their father on top of their mother, his cock in her.

It was like I could not breath as I entered the house, was I having a panic attack? But I heard laughter and taking out back on the deck. Composing myself I went outside, and there they were my wife, her ex, fully clothed, having a drink. Everything looked normal (like two people just sitting around, platonically).

I said hi but could not help myself asking why he was already here, since we were not expecting him so soon. He just smiled at me and said he had been out and decided instead of going home just to come back out again to get the kids that he would just make his way to our house.

Logically it made sense, but I had my doubts. Did my wife call him, tell him I was out of the house with the kids for awhile? If she had he definitely would have come right over.

My mind ran through all of the possibilities but it all came back to them having sex. When the kids went to get their things I should have asked them both, did you fuck while I was gone? But something made me say nothing. Is that what a cuckold should do? Live with whatever happens. Is it our role to accept it? Am I really starting to accept it?

From all indications he had been in my house for awhile, which means his cum was in my wife’s cunt, while we all just sat around socializing. Where did they fucked, now long did they fuck, did they fuck more than once?

But to be honest, the thoughts made my cock hard. Seeing him there with my wife, I was hard, sitting with them talking I was hard, thinking of them fucking made me hard.

I have not said anything to my wife, no questioning, and she has not provided any information.

I wanted sex when we went to bed, but she sucked me until I came. I tried to get her to stop so I could fuck her (did I want to feel his cum in her?) but her mouth on my cock brought me to the brink and I could not stop the orgasm.

My wife’s ex came over Christmas Eve. We all had dinner together, her ex, my wife, their kids and me, When the kids went to bed, the fun began. I know we were taking some risks, maybe too comfortable, but sex happened in our family room. After a couple of drinks, they were standing by the fireplace where he undressed my wife, exposing her breasts, cupping them. Soon he had her naked. I sat in a nearby chair, watching. My wife unbuttoned his shirt, and I love seeing him barechested. The well defined muscular chest, hot nipples. There is something erotic and unsettling watching my wife undo his belt, push down his pants, then his boxers revealing his boner. With him naked, my wife went down on her knees and took his cock in her mouth. I am not sure I will ever get used to how big and thick his cock is. As I have said before, watching my wife with his cock in her mouth still gets to me, but I was transfixed. Soon he stopped her, helped her up, laid her to the couch where he had her lay down. He sat by her feet, spread her legs and went down on her. I watched as he tongue licked her and then tongue fucked her. His hands playing with her tits, her nipples. I was so hard but did nothing to undress myself.
He continued until she came and even then he did not stop, as I watched my wife reach her intense orgasm and then try to stop him as it was too much for her. Moving away from her cunt, he began positioning himself for fucking, climbing on top of her, his weight on his arms, his cock rock hard and ready to penetrate. Seeing his naked hard body hovering over my naked wife, his cock pointing straight ahead for the prize, I am not sure why I did not cum right there in my briefs. As he moved slightly forward and began lowering himself, I saw that big cock head disappear in my wife’s cunt. I watched my wife as she was being penetrated, looking for the tell tale sign that he was fully inside of her. When she gasped, her body slightly arching under him, I knew he was completely in. Then I watched his ass muscles as he began the rhythm of fucking, slowly at first. It was like I was fucking her, I could always feel the sensation. Then there was the intense fucking, his hard chest pressed against my wife’s tits. With their size, her tits were slightly smashed under him, but still quite evident. They fucked for at least thirty minutes, my wife cumming twice. I could see the sheen on his body, working hard as he fucked. After my wife came that second time while being fucked, he started pounding her, getting himself to the point of no return. How the fuck does he even make his hard body even harder, but I could see all of his muscles bulging. He lifted slightly up from my wife’s tits as he fucked and then cried out as he pumped his big load deep inside of her. I could almost imagine each rope of cum shooting inside of her. When he stopped cumming, he slid out of her, his cock still rock hard, glistening with her cunt juice and his cum.
My wife looked exhausted but sexually satisfied. I quickly stripped naked, boy had I precummed quite a lot. I approached her, looking forward to my sloppy second, my cock hard, nothing compared to his, but still hard. But my wife looked at me and said she was not up for it. You can imagine my disappointment, but I knew my place. I stood there for a moment, actually feeling embarrassed. Naked, boner in front of him, rejected sexually. As I was ready to turn around he told me to masturbate. I looked at him and he repeated it, masturbate, and added that I was to shoot my load on my wife’s tits. I have masturbated in front of them but never for them to just watch me. I hesitated but then started stroking myself, not looking at either at either of them, but I knew they were watching. Normally when I masturbate it does not take long for me to cum, but under these circumstances, I was not getting close. Was it being watched, I think so, and feeling embarrassed, but not sure why. I stroked and stroked, I was so hard and I so wanted to cum. It was when I felt his hand on my ass that I suddenly came, shooting what for me was a gigantic load, right across her tits. When I finished cumming, I stood there ready to go sit down when he told me to lick it off of her tits. I looked at my wife and she had this wicked smile on her face. I proceeded to lick up my cum off her tits, all of it as directed. When I was done, my wife got up, saying she needed to shower, heading out of the room naked. (the fucking chances we were taking with the kids in the house).
When she left, he told me I did a good job but I had not gotten all of it.
I was ready to defend myself as I had licked all of my cum off of her but then I realized what he meant. As his legs spread apart, I took his cum covered cock in my mouth and cleaned him off. He did not cum, but his cock sure did taste good.
When my wife returned, we got the presents under the tree. I have to say I have never done that naked.