Reply To: Starting to first explore my sexual inferiority

I assure you that what you are experiencing is absolutely 100% normal – in the context of being a cuckold. I was also approaching 40 when I started coming to terms with my inadequacies. At that point in our lives we had been swingers for several years, and I had seen enough to realize I am not the hung sexy stud I once thought I was. I had seen my wife be satisfied by lovers in ways I could never satisfy her. I began to always desire this for my wife – or was it for me? We evolved from swingers to more of a “hotwife” couple where our focus was on finding men for sexual liaisons with her. These men were usually “alpha males” – much more dominant then me. I took to my natural role as submissive, and incorporated ways to serve them into our “playdates”.

I became very sexually attracted to our bulls, and enjoy orally servicing them very much. Yet I don’t consider myself gay or even bisexual. I have no interest in sexual relationships with men outside the context of cuckolding. I feel that when I orally service our bull it represents his dominion over myself and my wife. It is the way I let him know he is our master. Only in the context of cuckolding – with my wife present to witness my submission – do I suck cock.

What you’re feeling are very normal feelings for a cuckold to have.