The next step in my journey as a cuckold

Well I am on my way to soon shooting blanks, I had my vasectomy this past Friday but I understand it can take anywhere from 20 to 50 ejaculations before I have no more fertile seed coming from my cock.

My wife and I had a special night on Thursday. We went out to a nice dinner, had some drinks and came home and had passionate sex. My wife sucked my cock, I licked her clit until she came and we fucked. I got to pump two fertile loads in her, my last time to do so. It was very emotional for me. But my wife was very loving.

Hee ex picked me up in the morning to take me to my appointment. We did some looks and I wonder if they thought we were gay, but then again why would a gay guy get a vascetomy.

Wow, nothing like totally naked from the waist down, legs up in stirups. I do not know if it is normal, but before he numbed the area, I had a semi erection. Nothing like a needle in your ball sack. I did have a moment of doubt and I think if I was not naked on the table, leg up, I would have left. The procedure did not take to long. I could not feel him touch my balls, make the incision and snip the sperm ducts.

But it was soon done, suctured and I was on my way. My wife’s ex was so kind to me, make sure I could get in the car okay. At that time my balls were numb so it was okay though I know i walked funny. The vasectomy walk I supposed.

It was kind of hot laying in his bed recoverying, him taking care of me.

He asked me all about the procedure, how I was feeling, but the best part was he thanked me for going through with it.

Before he took me home, I asked him if I could suck him. He asked if I was really up for that, and honestly, I was not, but I wanted to thank him for being so nice to me.

Sitting on the side of bed I took him in my mouth and sucked him until he came in my mouth.

At home, my wife then made sure I was comfortable as possible. The overall experience was not too bad. When the numbness worn off it was slightly painful, but tylenol helped and by Sunday, I felt pretty good.

Step one of this phase of this journey is not behind me.

Just a quick update. After a week of recuperating from my vasectomy and no playtime with my cock, I had my first milking on Saturday to begin the final step of eliminating any fertile seed I may still have. As promised my wife jerked me off.
I have to admit it was pleasurable and difficult. My wife and I stripped naked and I pleasured her orally. As she was cumming I so wanted to fuck her, which we all agreed I would not do. BUt it made me rock hard, maybe even harder than normal because the pussy was right there but I was denied. But my wife made love to my cock. She kissed the cock head (0h how I wanted her to go down on me but oral is also out of the question) and then stroked me. Gentle loving, up and down, my lubed cock was so hard and it felt so good. Then she intensifed the movement, stroking me all kinds of ways and since I had not cum in over a week, I swear I shot one of my bigger load.
It was hot and also sad as I knew my load was full of fertile seed, just laying there useless, but overtime it my fertility would diminish and then there would be blanks.

She gave me a handjob on Sunday, another load closer to infertility. Her ex came over to be with their kids since it was Easter and they found time to fuck, I stayed with the kids to give them their privacy.

I have had daily milkings by my wife. Even though the pursose is to rid my cock from shooting fertile seed, I have to say it has been hot and definitely the most sex I have ever had in a row. Yes I masturbated every day as soon as I learned what my cock could do and how it felt as a kid, but to have my wife play with my cock and get me off every day has been awesome. Interestingly, my urge to fuck my wife has been deminishing. I do not know if it is because I enjoy the attention to my cock and it is becoming a norm for me or I am accepting that my days of fucking my wife are over for some time.

Once I am infertile, I know I will not get that same attention every day.

But the positive thing about all this occured last night. As my wife was stroking my cock, she told me she loved me for going through with this. She knows how difficult it has been for me to come to where we are in the baby decisions and she loves me for being so unselfish.

I asked her if this is what she truly wants and to told her to be honest, that I did not want her to spare my feelings. She finally admitted that she wants his baby and that she is glad I did not want a baby. Yes my male ego was stung but I could see she was very happy. She did say it was not that a baby with me would not have been great, but she really wanted all of her kids to have the same biological father. I certainly understand that as I find it hard to accept that my two kids have a half brother with their mother and it is one of the reason I did not want another child, another half brother for my kids. Yes they will think that is what this baby will be, but at some point they will learn the truth. Maybe my logic is fucked up and having my wife inseminated by her ex is fucked up.

Anyway, my wife has three days of the pill left to take and then she starts the process of her body going back to regular cycles and the ability to conceive.

My wife took her last birth control pill yesterday, finishing up the cycle. Now we wait for her body to adjust and her natural cycle to resume.

Her ex will fuck her with a condom until it is time for him to fuck and impregnate her.

Exciting to think about but also makes me anguish if I am being honest.

As for me it has been two weeks of milking and over three weeks of no intercourse with my wife. That has been hard as we have never gone this long without fucking. And having my cock stroked by her to rid any fertile seed has made me so horny to fuck.

But I need to honor my commitment to my wife and her ex. No intercourse for me until after she is pregnant.

I know what the end result of this phase of my cuckold journey will be, my wife pregnant with his fertile seed, which I willingly accept, but getting to that goal has definitely been incredible from a sexual and intimacy perspective. Every day my wife plays with my cock (we never had daily sex even when we first got married). I lick or finger her to make her cum as well.
And we recently had a wonderful time with her ex and I do say we. He came over to fuck my wife and now that she is fully off the pill, he uses a condom. As we undressed in our bedroom and I took my usual seat in the room to watch, he told me to get on the bed. But first he handed me his condom and told me to take it out and put it on his already rock hard cock. I was surprised and it was awkward, never put a condom on another guy’s cock, only my own. To steady his cock, I took it in my hand and placed the open end of his condom on his cock head (of course it was a magnum condom, wow, those are big) and then unrolled it over his cock. I thought that would be it, back to my chair, but he told me to lay on the bed and surprisely, he told my wife to get on her knees and put my cock in her mouth. Oh my cock got so hard. Once in position, my cock in my wife’s mouth, he got in position behind her and I knew when he penetrated her cunt as she gasped even with my cock in her mouth. He fucked her as she sucked me. I was afraid I would come quick but I guess the daily milkings, which I noticed lasted longer each time, made me last. But unlike him who can totally control his orgasm, the sensation was overwhelming and I let them know I was about to cum. As my wife started sliding my cock out of her mouth, I say him push her head down. I tried to hold back, not sure she wanted this, but I soon came, filling her mouth with my cum. She swallowed me, it was incredible and then he came, filling the condom.

I know he shoots a big load, but seeing it in the condom, fuck man, it had to fill at least a couple of inches. White creamy cum. He handed it to me and I just looked at it. As they laid naked together on the bed, I got up to discard it.

But I could not stop looking at it, the volume, knowing it was full of fertile seed. I hesitated, but I wanted it and soon I put the open end of the condom in my mouth, lifted it up and that big glub of cum slid into my mouth, which I swallowed.

I flushed the toilet as if I had dumped his load in it and threw the used condom, wrapped in kleenex in the trash can.

My wife got fucked by him but I got the reward.

An update

Many of you suggested that my wife and her ex (her lover) have privacy as they try to conceive a baby. That I should not be there. I really did not like the idea, as I wanted to be there each and every time he fucked her, when they made love, for the purpose of planting his seed in her fertile womb. But I so listen to others (I think that is what a cuckold obedient cuckold should do.) So I suggested it to them. I have to say neither wanted me to be absent (now my wife did not, but I think he liked the idea even though he never said it)

Anyway, my wife really wants to wait for a couple of months after stoppimg the pill, which she did on April 29th, but I think the thought of him fucking her bare enticed her to agree to a private fucking, at least one, sooner than later.

So on Father’s Day I suggested it be the time for their private moment. It certainly seemed appropriate since he is the father of their two children.

Even though everyone was at our house, my kids, their kids, her ex on Father’s day, I came up with a plan to take all of the kids out to the park. Leaving them back at the house where they could be naked and fuck. It is amazing the lies you can tell to convince kids to do things so that sex can take place (just not sex for me).

My wife was excited but I think she also knew the likelihood of a pregnancy was remote, her period not that far off. But one never knows what could happen.

So off the kids and I went to the park and to the bedroom my wife and her lover went to get naked, fuck and try for a baby.

I have to admit it was a very hard decision not to be there to witness and I do not think I was ready yet for this to actually happen, him fucking and fertilzing my wife’s egg.

When we returned a few hours later, everything looked normal, we ate, had fun and the whole time all I could think about is his fertile cum in her cunt. Was she knocked up or was his fertile see still working its magic trying to get into the egg.

I decided I did not want any details of their lovemaking, their fucking. It was their time and none of my business.

Waiting to see if my wife got her period was fucking hard, she could be pregnant (which I really wanted to be part of but would have missed.) It also made me realize the reality of what we were doing (whether the deed was now already done or what we would be doing soon enough).

But also, on June 29th my wife informed me she had her period. I was relieved but I think my wife was disappointed, even though this was really not the timing she wanted.

Since my wife wants to wait out this cycle before becoming pregnant, sometime mid August (oh my) fantasy will become a reality. Her lover back using the condom.

As for me, I got confirmed I am not longer shooting any fertile seed, all blanks. The doctor said it was too soon to test (he did not know that I had been ejaculating every day since the vasectomy) but I insisted (I guess he thought I was just a fucking horny guy who wanted to be fucking my wife bare without worrying about a pregnancy). The test came back showing no sperm in my semen. Leaving the doctor’s office, I sat in my car and, don’t judge me, cried.

My wife got her period last night. Normally she is not a happy person when she gets her period, and I know it is not a pleasant experience for her. But I noticed that she was actually excited that this period arrived. As I mentioned previously, she was waiting for this period before there would be any attempt at conception. I know she called her ex to let him know. THe fact that she was happy and that she called him to let him know he would be fucking her soon for him to put a baby in her, really upset me. Not sure what I expected, after all, I know she wants him to put a baby in her. I fucking got a vasectomy to prevent me impregnating her (of course since there has been no intercourse between my wife and me since the vasectony, I wonder why I needed to get clipped).
I have not changed my mind about what will be happening soon, looking forward to it, but it still hurts to know that your wife craves another man’s fertile seed, wants his baby.
As a cuckold, I need to accept what my wife wants and needs and to honor the bull.

Planting the Seed

Everything has led to this moment, whether unconsciously from the beginning of my cuckold journey to being fully aware of the decisions I have made that have led to this day.
Asking my wife to cuckold me with another man, accepting her ex as her lover, watching my wife suck his cock and watching him fuck my wife, discussing with my wife a possible pregnancy, agreeing that he would be the seed bearer, getting a vasectomy, being milked every day until any of my fertile seed was eliminated, agreeing to abstain from intercourse with my wife until she is pregnant, my wife coming off the pill, waiting four months until my wife’s periods were regular and then making the reservations for the three of us to stay at a very nice hotel, a suite, for the weekend.
Friday, the 12th, my wife and I both took off from work, packed a small suitcase. I helped my wife pick out a sexy pair of pink panties and a very sheer short nightie. I know they were only a formality since she would not be wearing them very long. My wife shaved her pussy, her legs, prepped herself. I could tell she was very excited, especially when she told me she knew she was close to ovulating.
Hearing that and knowing it would not be me fucking and impregnating her, being honest with myself, it hurt. My wife wanted his baby. Yes I had a choice, I could have been the father, even though I suspected it was his seed, his baby she wanted, to add to the two they had together when they were married. But I did not want any more children, my two with my first wife were enough.
Arrangements all made, we waited until the appointed hour when her ex was going to pick us up at our house and drive us to the hotel. I was anxious, time seemed to go so slow. But 5 o’clock came, I heard him pull his car into the driveway. Everyone ready he said as he came into the house, definitely a man on a mission. As ready as we will ever be, I said, trying to be calm, but not sure I was successful in hiding my trepidation. He kissed my wife, and taking her hand, lead her outside to his waiting car. I followed carrying our small suitcase. My wife in the front with him, me in the back seat.
The tension, the body language between the two of them, it was evident that they both were focused on what was to come. Like watching two kids on a first date, knowing they would be fucking later. I am positive my presence in the car was totally forgotten.
Checking into the hotel, riding the elevator up to our room, each a step closer to the moment of now return. As a surprise for them, I had ordered champagne and chocolate covered strawberries. I was trying to be as involved as I could be, to show them I was in acceptance. The suite was very nice, great view and I could glimpse a part of the bed where they would be laying naked, fucking, making love, making a baby. I found I could not go into the bedroom to check it out.
He popped the champagne, poured us all a glass, they took the two champagne glasses (why would anyone think to give us three) and I found a regular glass in the room.
He toasted how beautiful my wife is, how excited he was to be there and looking at me, thanked me for agreeing to letting them create a baby. There is was, the word baby, the anticipated outcome of this night. I felt lightheaded, but stayed composed. Yes I knew this was all going to happen, but now that we are here, it was like reality suddenly hit me. Should I stop this, tell them it was a mistake, I did not agree. Oh how I wanted to, if I am being honest with myself. But then I looked at my wife, saw how happy and excited she was. She wanted this. I could not give her a baby since I had the vasectomy. Yes I could try to have it reversed, but I knew I did not want another kid of my own.
I love my wife, would give her anything she wanted and this is what she wanted. I could not take that away from her.
So I said, cheers and that I was happy and thanked him for letting me be a part of this special night.
He suggested that my wife and I go into the bedroom, to get everything ready. Another way of saying to get my wife naked and ready for his cock. Entering the bedroom, there was the bed, the place where it was all going to happen. But I needed to stop obsessing over every detail. I took my wife in my arms, kissed her and asked her if she was happy. She looked at me, said she loved me and that yes she was very happy. With that I undressed her, almost like I did on our wedding night. Yes we had fucked before we were married, but something about our wedding night, the consummation of our marriage, it was all so surreal and erotic.
Standing before me, just her bra and panties, I kissed her, turned her around to undo the bra, letting it fall to the floor. Oh how I wanted to fondle her tits, but I knew it was not what I should do. Turning around she looked at me, her breasts so firm, her nipples erect. I would have ripped off her panties and fucked her right there if it had been any other night. Instead I just smiled at her, said I loved her, seeing her with her sexy pink panties, otherwise naked. I opened the suitcase, pulled out the sheer nightie she had purchased for this occasion. The new panties and nightie were for him (not me).
I took her in my arms, feeling her breasts pressed against my chest, her skin so warm. I had an erection, something she would have normally commented on in a teasing manner, but not this night. Letting go, I led her to the bed where she sat while I turned back to the door to open it for him.
He was naked, erect, sitting on the couch. I could not deny how sexual, how masculine he is. Muscular, tall, tan. Almost perfect. Like I was seeing him for the first time. Handsome, defined chest, dark round nipples, hint of abs, and of course the package, big thick long cock, balls that hang down, laying against the cushion of the couch, his containers of fertile seed. As he stood, I watched his balls slip down, slightly swinging. Big balls, have they always been so fucking big??
He smiled, walked past me into the bedroom, where my wife waited naked except for the sheer nightie and panties. I stood at the door. I could see my wife eye up his body, his erect cock, that seductive smile she can get when horny. He gently pulled her to her feet, held her face as he kissed her. Took her into his arms, my wife’s hands feeling up his body. He removed the nightie, slow, pulling it over her head, fully exposing her breasts. He took them into his hands, bent over to kiss one and then the other, going back to give them a quick suck. I swear his cock was harder than I have ever seen it, it had to be my imagination. He gently sat her on the bed, grabbed the rim of her panties and slid them off, exposing her beautiful pussy, shaved, pink. I watched as he pushed her legs apart and had her lay on her back, her legs over the edge of the bed, her pussy fully exposed. I knew he was going to penetrate her, but instead he turned to me, and asked me to lick her pussy, make her ready for him. I was taken aback, slightly hesitating, but quickly I stripped naked, got on my knees and there between my wife’s legs I licked and sucked her clit. She was fucking wet. She started moaning and before I knew it, she was cumming. I didn’t stop sucking her clit until she placed her hands on my head to stop.
I got up off the floor and watched as he helped her slid back on the bed. I was dripping precum. I could taste her on my lips. I watched as he climbed on top of her, his naked body practically covering her naked body. They kissed, as hard as he was, he had self-control, taking his time, even though I could see my wife’s hips moving under him, feeling that hard cock. I knew she wanted it in her.
When he lifted up to penetrate her, I suddenly sked if I could help guide it in. He is a strong man and he just held himself up while I walked over to the bed. He said nothing but I could tell he wanted me to guide it in. I sat on the bed, took his erect cock in my hand, positioned it at the entrance to her cunt as he slowly lowered himself. Placing that big cock head between her pussy lips, I knew he would soon be inside of her. Slowly his cock head slid inside, my hand still on his shaft and as the shaft started sliding in, as my wife’s body bucked under him, I let go and watched as it completely disappeared inside her cunt.
This was their time, their moment, so I slid off the bed, sat in a nearby chair, naked, hard, and watched as they fucked. As many times as I have watched them fuck, I knew this was different. I have been there and heard him cum inside of her, but it was just cumming. The seed eventually sliding out of her pussy, nothing more. But this time, his seed had a purpose. My wife was fertile, off the pill for four months, she would be ovulating soon, if not this very night.
As I have commented before, he has stamina when he fucks. Slow and steady, quick and intense. I heard my wife cum and seeing his pace, I knew he would make her cum again before he came. Normally during long fuck sessions he would change positions, fuck her doggy, but not tonight. Missionary, face to face, making love. Yes they were making love, making love to make a baby. (I remember that feeling, the intensity of the sex during those times.)
My wife came again, I could see that she was worn out after. And then his fucking became intense, more animalistic, his body tense, every muscle straining. I knew this was going to be it. His breathing heavy, the bed shaking and then and then, he was cumming. I knew he was pumping his fertile seed into my wife’s fertile cunt. Thrust after thrust, ropes of cum were shooting out of his cock. Fuck, was he ever going to stop pumping his load in her.
But like all sex, the orgasm ceases, semen stops coming out. Holding himself up and over my wife, his cock still in her cunt, he leaned down and kissed her. Normally he would withdraw and roll on his side next to her. But he was savoring it, keeping his cock, still hard, inside of her. When he did pull out, he was still hard, covered in his own cum, wet from her cunt.
I quickly got up, grabbed a pillow, helped my wife lift her legs and placed the pillow under her hips. We needed to keep his fertile seed in her. There she laid, naked, fucked, seeded, hips elevated. He laid naked next to her, his cock starting to lose the erection.
As for me, I had masturbated and came while he was cumming. I was aware of it, but my focus was on them, him pumping his seed in her, that I almost did not realize it.
Now we wait to see if he impregnated my wife. (Of course, they fucked another 4 times that weekend, but it was this first time that I will always remember.)

As the photo shows he was successful