Reply To: Our journey from monogamy to a cuckold marriage

Thank you for this wonderful post. I hope to feel as comfortable in my role as a cuckold one day.

I’m over the jealousy or at least negative jealousy. I still feel jealous, but in more of an aroused way.

It is my self image as a man and my confidence I struggle with. I feel shame that I’m unable to please my wife the way he can. At first I felt some control and convinced myself I was giving her this pleasure through him. But over time and the less we have sex and the less I am able to perform sexually with her because in my head I can’t stop thinking about how much better he is and how she must be thinking I am pathetic as I fuck her.

I know it is mostly in my head, but that is still real to me. Finding out I was small to her after years of her tolerating mediocre sex from me really slammed me… i just keep thinking that she was just doing sex as a chore with me all those years before we were open. All the routine vanilla sex we had and then she fucks him like a 20 year old slut again while I get pity handjobs. Even tho I asked for all of this and I don’t see it any other way… It fucks me up.