Reply To: Desperately need help ….

You are spending too much time by listening to him If all you say is true then clearly you have taken all the steps to satisfy him and try to make yourself happy at same time
If I was you I would make myself a profile on a dating site ( just as I have )
I would show him the emails and messages that I find interesting and then make him decide
If he wants me to meet them or not
When he says yes
He should stay home in a cock cage
Maybe even wearing women’s lingerie
You then should decide if you are going through with sex or not on your date
Do not let him know anything unless he agrees to meet your demands of bringing you to orgasm at least three times
Using his mouth or cock
But he can only do that after 3 days and nights after your date
The three days are crucial
He must imagine you with him
He must not know if you did anything or anybody
At that point you may either give him actual accout of your sexual date Or make up one
Either way it’s clear he only wants the fantasy
You may give him that in exchange for your sexual pleasure
I have in the past been out on dates and never been touched but hubby thinks I had a threemome with two guys
On another hand I have been gang banged and he thinks I only kissed on guy