Reply To: My Story (The Road to Acceptance: Where is it heading?)

Okay, I am a wimp and emotional. I cannot help it, telling this brings back so many emotions for me. But I need to tell someone. So here he is, telling me, the husband, that he wants to impregnate my wife. And my wife says nothing, shouldn’t she have said no?? Just to laugh and not reject this idea. Does she want another baby with him? I heard her tell him she loved him after he brought her home from that weekend. What did that mean? Could just be an emotional moment for my wife, reliving their wedding night, at the same hotel, the same room. That has to be it, right?
He asked me what I was feeling and I told him I was upset, angry at him for suggesting that he knock her up. Then he asked me that question I did not want him to ask. Why did I want my wife fucked by another man?
That is the core of this entire experience. I did not know how to answer, but I tried. Maybe I did not feel I was good enough, that I was not a good lover, that I was inferior to other men. I told him that he has a much better body than me, a bigger cock, fucks better, makes my wife cum more easily than I can do. And I admitted to him that I like to see him naked, to see him aroused, his cock in my wife’s mouth (even though that still is difficult for me) his cock fucking her, knowing he is coming in her, to hear him having an orgasm.
He asked me if I thought I was gay. I know I am not gay, but I admitted that I think I am bi. He laughed and said of course I was bi, I just sucked his cock. I told him I was confused about why I wanted this cuckold lifestyle, but the thought made me horny, watching them having sex turned me on.

I hate to admit this but I ended up crying, my body shaking from my anguish. He came over to me, held me. I actually felt safe in his arms. My anger towards him was gone.