Reply To: My Story (The Road to Acceptance: Where is it heading?)

I understand what you and your wife are saying. Going down this path is not easy and it does question the strength of a marriage. I assume some couples are comfortable with how a cuckolding situation progresses, with the husband becoming more a life companion without the sex. I assume there can be genuine love between the husband and wife, with a life commitment, but no sexual intimacy between them. That is between the wife and her lover. I do not personally understand that and do not want that in my marriage.
We all have our kinks when it comes to sex, some more vanilla than others and some intense that others may or would question.
If my first wife had not cheated on me I would never have pursued or even thought about this lifestyle. Or if I never found out she was fucking another guy. I imagine there are wives who have fucked other men and the husbands have never found out. And yes I imagine some of those husbands are unknowingly raising another man’s kid.
We all have to live with what we create or live in ignorance of reality.
I pursued this because I needed to see another man fuck my wife, since I was totally in the dark about my first wife’s sexual activity with another man. Yes I know that thinking can be viewed as fucked up. I guess I was fucked up, still fucked up, by my experience with my first wife.
But here we are, I am a cuckold, another man fucks my new wife. It has been difficult at times. Sexually it has been satisfying, watching them fucking, seeing them both naked. And though I never thought I would want to or could even perform in front of another person,especially a guy, I love fucking my wife with him there.
I will not give up sex with my wife. I can play second fiddle to him sexually, let him be the “alpha” male.
There is some kind of connection between the three of us, emotional, sexually. Because there is history with her ex, kids, their marital sex life, there seems to be a natural bond between the three of us.
Yes there are moments of doubt, anguish, confusion, jealousy on my part. But I feel I have reached some point of acceptance. Time will tell where this all goes.