Restarting my wifr

We a couple who have been married for about 20 years and are between 45 and 50. We have a couple of kids together. Our status is set of inactive and has a little different story in the lifestyle. To put in it short. My wife started to cuckold me very early in our relationship as one-night stats but didn’t tell me about it. She did this over a period of 15 years not regularly but when something interesting appeared. She told me 5 years ago that she hat did this in the past since I was talking about trying a threesome with an extra guy. It was a shock to me and it hat a lot of mixed feelings but to my surprised also a big turn on for me. I told her that it was ok as it was just sex and it was ok if she continued. She was very happy about my response but told me that she stopped a few years after we got our first kid as she could not see her doing this as a mom and due to some weight grain.

This means that I never got the chance to be a knowing cuckold which I would have loved to but from time to time she gives me some details from some of her “dates” which she knows give me a huge hard-on.

Looking back I can see a lot of hints of what she was doing but now also why she somedays was very happy. Therefore I would like to reboot her past life so I can see her this happy again.