Re: Confused

Hey thanks so much for your input! Even thought I had addressed this to Luvr, but I did not mean just him – everyone is welcomed to post their thoughts on my situation! 

I guess part of my worries are due to the fact that the love of my life is very dominant at times and I am scared that she`ll expect me to do things I am not entirely ready to do. Recently she skyped me a link to a video with creampie clean up and asked  me to report my thoughts on this. I still have not replied to her as this made me even more confused. I never thought that being a cuckold meant being gay.

I am not sure if she`d ever stop – I mean she has crazy sex drive and a crazy mind. She was always like that – wanting to try new stuff that made my jaw drop at times. Just reading her skype message I got the idea that creampie clean ups is something she’s very interested in. She even joked that I have quasi-clean-up experience already (refering to the situation where I ate her not knowing that she had sex with her boss 1-2 hours before that (they did use condoms then, but she emphasized that condoms are no longer an option with her boss as both of them did not want to use them any more and she only would use them with her second lover). This whole situation drives me nuts. What if she gets pregnant? Actually, it seems that most resources are not discussing the topic of pregnancy from lover etc! I mean I love her and I want us to have kids at some stage! And if she keeps me locked up – and refuses to allow myself enter her?! Oh…its just too much to think about it… And to make me even more emotional… she is spending this very night at her boss’s place. She skyped me from his apartment…