My story what are my chances? Need advice!!

i never told her my fantasy but told her she can flirt with guys if she’d like. I’d hint to it for over a year. She was turned off at first at how I’m ok with her flirting. Said I should be jealous and territorial. Then later bragged to people about how her husband encourages her to flirt and theirs don’t.

One night during freaky drunk sex she told me her biggest fantasy is to see me jerking off watching her fuck somene else. I couldnt believe it. I admitted right then and there and we talked about it for a few weeks. She said she fantasizes about it often when we have sex and it gets her off. For almost 2 years it’s been her fantasy. She had details, seeing me cum all over myself while she fucked someone.

I always thought maybe it was something she wanted. So many times she was in a crazy zone sucking my finger like a cock while we fucked. Always loved her toys so she was DP while we fucked. So many signs. One night she came home drunk and rode my face saying “mmm eat that cum” but I never admitted until one night she said it.

One day a few weeks after we both talked about the fantasy I mentioned a dream of her and I being on vacation and meeting a guy at a hotel bar. She said gross. She got offended and then her story changed to “it was a version of you fucking me while you watched and jerked off” then she backed off told me she doesn’t want it, doesn’t think about it anymore and never actually wanted to do it “only a fantasy and I was excited for something that was pure fantasy” then another time told me maybe some day but no one could find out maybe in another city. So back and forth confusing but I still thought maybe there was a chance. She went over her fears, feelings, std, people finding out and he would have to be from another city annd we’d never see him again. After that I stopped trying to talk about it.

Now and then after drinking she will tease me a bit. Talk about DP loved me eating my creampie from her and came hard(I worked up the courage one time made sure I came first then went down on her and ate it out of her. She came so hard she squirted all over my face) She will randomly tease about being filled by a huge cock dripping from her. Or talk about cocks or guys she thinks is hot. Only during special extra horny occasions after liquid courage will she tease me a bit with it…her favorite sex night..the night she told me. She knows it gets me off hard and still will play with it. I stopped bringing it up trying to let it be on her terms.

I need to know thoughts about this situation is there a chance it will? Did I push too hard and ruin it? Is she just afraid and in denial? It was right there we both wanted it bad and now it’s vanilla sex and sometimes every few months if she’s drinking enough little clues will come out but she’s guarded. I still don’t want to give up hope but need some guidance.

Lately I’ve been building her up, serving her calling her my queen making her feel sexy and so much love but I am too scared to bring it back up again. It was pure shut down after green light. Not sure what happened and if I still stand a chance.

I’ve been taking some coaching by a lovely cuckoldress and I seem to have small strides in getting her used to me serving her in general I just don’t know if anyone else has any viewpoints, tips or ideas on opening her back up to the idea and making this a reality as she clearly wanted this bad.

Hoping to hear some thoughts on this! Thank you all