matmagic99
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    Thanks Beth.  Good luck to you, as well.  I'm reminded that, as wild as some of this is, it is just people out here, struggling to find their way, just as it is anyplace else.  Perhaps, then, you'd be better off taking the patient approach and just try to find a nice guy, and if you are really lucky, a guy who is susceptible to what you would prefer.  Or who could influence you to change the way you feel, based on your experience with him.  One question, in your post you said some people are just in this (I assume you meant cuckolding) for the fantasy or sexual excitement, which you said, isn't good.  Are you saying that you are in it for other reasons?  I'm asking, because I've kind of fantasied (but have gotten no real agreement) that the cuckolding lifestyle could lead to spiritual or personal growth.  Are you implying that, or that people are the way they are and just need  different things?