Re: Understanding Myself As A Cuckold

greenhat said:

I just want to see her happy, and if I allow it I should get some of the painful pleasures that cuckolding offers. The thought of cleaning her after he cums, or her making me clean him turns me on like nothing else. But at what cost. She probably will never be able to respect me again. She may tell her friends, my friends, there is so much to lose. I suspect she may be cheating anyway. So maybe I should ask for it. I really don't know what to do. I didn't ask to be into this. I feel trapped but I love it too. 

The fear of others finding out is something we share. It would be nice to think that our spouse could treat this with complete confidence, but there is also the other man. How do we know that he is not off telling other people. I guess we are all looking for thatg special relationship where 3 people could share a trust and discretion.