Re: Wife Initiated Cuckolding

Well, to put it in the nutshell the “working through” was a long process of me figuring out that it was going to be her way or the highway. Although I was a virgin when we got married, I had been intimate with a few girls along the way and they all made direct and repeated references to my cock being small. I guess I was kidding myself–probably in the glow of our engagement and marriage–that I would be able to meet her needs. I have since learned that a large income and an endlessly compliant nature is not going to be enough for her.

Where we are right now is that my wife had a boyfriend for almost two years. He lived near us but he was a reservist and got called up. After that they drifted apart. We always had a femdom aspect to our marriage but this was never part of her interaction with her boyfriend. She was like a different person and none of the desire to dominate/manipulate that are so deeply ingrained in her personality were even present when she was with him. If anything, SHE became the submisssive one. She does not like one nighters (though it has happened occasionally). Her whole focus is finding a long term situation. That said, we live on a barrier island on the coast of Florida and there isn't a huge population to draw from. Many huge changes came about in our lives during the 2 years that she was with Josh and that fact concerns me some since she seems to have her radar up looking for another situation like that. When Josh left, I redoubled my efforts to be all the man she ever needs but I am starting to have doubts about the success of that plan. We have a high profile lifestyle in a relatively small community and so we have to be careful.

I guess I am the living embodiment of cuckold angst. Somehow though, that seems to engerize her all the more. I know from our femdom activities that she has a sadistic streak (god help me if that gets tapped into). Maybe that thread is the source of her sexual relish of the more humiliating aspects of the cuckold thing. It hasn't been totally out in the open but I can read her and I know she's getting off on it.