Change in live.

We are married for 15 years, and we always had problematic sex  live. I am not so potent, and my drive has always been low.

My size is also under the average size.

So i never was able to satisfy my wife really, though if we had sex, she enjoyed it.

My wife loves me, and she accepted it.

But last summer we were sitting in the garden, drinking wine,  and i dont know how the subject came to it, at 1 point i asked her if she ever had fantasies about other men.

She had, mostly about a old lover from her past, but she also looked on internet at well hung males.

I asked her if she would like to have sex with another man, and she said that if it would not hurt my feelings, she would try it. So we placed a profile from us on a cuckolding site, and we did get a lot of reactions. We were a bit afraid, but we contacted a male who seemed to be honoust and caring. We met him the next sunday in restaurant, and talked. My wife liked him, and they went to our home with his car, and i our own car.At yhat moment it did feel a bit surrealistic.

In the car my phone did ring, an emergency at my work, so i had to go there. I came home a few hours later, finding them in the garden, chatting about things. They had allready done it, and my wife seemed very happy. We had a drink, and had something to eat, and after the coffee they wanted to do it again.I was allowed to look. It is a strange sensation looking at your wife having sex with another man, and enjoying it. They did things i never did with her.I felt a little bit if i was not there, i guess i wanted to hide myself, i felt ashamed.

He left after a few hours, i talked with my wife, and felt hurt. They met several times, but it was not easy for me, i was jealous, and in that time we had a lot of fights. I wanted to compete with him showing my wife that i was also a good lover. In that time, just for the play, i did get a chastity device, i am submissive, so it gave me strange kick not to be able to do anything. It was a CB3000. I had to wear it more and more, it gave my wive a feeling of power over me, like i was her posession.

The relationship between her and him ended, but during the next months my wife had the desire for another man in her life. In december we met her old lover at a party, and we talked about things. He is married, has kids, but the contact between him and my wife was there at once. So now a few times in the month they meet at my home, mostly when i am at work, but sometimes in the evening, when i can hear them above me in the sleeping room. 

My wife bougt me also a better chastity device, a steel one, and when i am at home, and during the nights i allways have to wear it. Not while i am at work, i need to function normally. She wont allow me normal sex with her anymore, but i may cum 2 times in a month.

Its strange, i am a normal male, i have my pride, but i accept this situation. Our living goes on, we plan holidays, go to movies and friends, work, but this change is permanent. 

At one day i just confessed to myself Yes i am a cuckold, and accepted it. When my wife her lover is there, and i go to work, she always writes it on my butt with a marker.

Whatever will happen in the future, if she has a lover or not, i will allways be a cuckold now, and can never change that back. Excuse me for the bad english, it is not my language.

Regards

Peter