My humiliation

I am severely disabled and unable to have sex with my wife. I love be humiliated and subservient. My wife chooses her bulls and I have no say in anything now. She often humiliates me publicly. She will make me naked and sat on a hard chair knowing she has freinds about to visit. When they arrive she says ” sorry guys I was just helps him to change but you go and talk to him while I make a brew “. She will then leave me with her friends for ages making small talk. Then it’s “have you seen his catheter in his little penis come and have a close look see”. And sometimes she will do the same thing leave me sat with suppositories up my arse with a nappy on so I shit in front of her friends and the smell is obvious. I love this but am still really embarrassed at the time and wish it was not happening. When she has sex I am sometimes in the room or outside the door but am not involved much. I leak a lot round the tube and she makes fun of that to the bulls . It works for us. I was never dominant or good in bed.