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petitemistress
Ok I’m a happily married woman of 18 years with a caring and loving husband who is wondering the same as I am and hope this forum can help or who to turn to.
About 6 years ago I lost my job as a manager of Freight Company when they closed after 26 years and I’ve not found another full time job since. So in order to keeps us from going into deeper debt my husband took a very good paying job overseas but with no allowance for a spouse.
Before he departed we agreed that if a need aroused for sexual release we felt and agreed that a relationship is strong enough to weather most any one-night-stands, storms. Over the last five years I’ve had a few trysts and so has he. We provided each other with the basic details and moved on with our lives.
One night while on the phone and as a joke he asked me to take a few nude photos of myself and send them. I did and they came out every nice and over the next 6 months I took several hundred more and sent them too. Unknowingly he posted most of them on married wives sites and forums, and continually asking for more and again I sent them. Finally one night he confessed what he did and that he could not keep up with the demand.
After the anger wore off and I settled down I realize how turned on I was and I asked him for more details on what sites and if anybody sent him any comments. Needless to say how surprised I was and now willing I was to do more, buying sexy clothes, toys and even trying a video.
Well my porn status has grown, along with that more frequent request for dates. Finally a year ago I started two small web-sites and have been getting a nice small income since. Several of my customers have showered me with loads of clothes and gifts and again more offers for dates or more. Up to now I do not consider my husband “cuckold” as none of our trysts have been while we are together and only when we needed release.
Now here’s where the problem comes in. Hopefully within the next 6 months my husband will be coming home for good. The money we have saved and what little bit I’ve made will get us Thur for a while. But with the offers I’ve received for “special work” and the very strong desire of continuing with my Internet porn I do not want to quit and wish to expand it further.
I have mentioned this to my husband and he agreed to look at this very carefully upon his return. But as of now I’m not willing to stop doing the porn or my trysts as it’s become part of me and my life with the pleasures and other rewards I receive are too great to stop now.
So with all that said I see my husband becoming “cuckold” to my ways and wants and more or less be my agent for which I’m very much ok with and want.
My question after all this is how do I tell him and could this be a good or bad thing for our marriage?
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Luvr
petitemistress,
Welcome to my site!
let’s talk about sharing within a marriage: the act of sharing you does not actually make him a cuckold – that really depends on his role or perspective with regard to sharing you. If he were the dominant partner in the marriage and who you dated/played with was up to him or he chose when and how you would pleasure such partners, he’s not a cuckold – he’d be your Dom. A cuckold shares his wife from a position (role or perspective) of diminished authority; you are expected and encouraged to make the decisions regarding which men become sexual partners and what pleasures and intimacies you offer them.
You two are definitely heading toward the cuckold/hotwife end of things, but remain in a bit of a limbo status I’d say because you two aren’t fully discussing your needs or desires with each other. He obviously wants to sjare you and no husband is going to post you as he did and support your web site creation without having very intense thoughts of how visually sharing you can and likely will lead to physically sharing you.
I’m assuming he knows about the sites you set up – if not, that’s a pretty huge mistake on your part, but can be dealt with given his act of initiating sharing you online.
You shouldn’t be having trysts – you should be dating as a hotwife and sharing the experiences fully with your husband. When you two share in this experience together, it becomes another bond (and a strong one) between you and another way of sharing intimacy together. What can ruin this and make this a threat to your relationship is when you’re not fully sharing your experiences.
What frightens a cuckold husband and turns him against you (and sharing you) is when what you’re doing is more threatening than arousing. The way you keep it arousing is by sharing openly and including your cuckold in every aspect of your activities. When you keep things from him, even small details, you leave the door open for him to doubt and fear.
If your sites – or at least one of them – are not already cuckold centric, I’d highly suggest you consider that. Not only is that more accurate, but it would include your husband and make it transparent you’re married and sexually available vs married and cheating. Also, the number of genuine cuckold/hotwife sites is very, very low and you could greatly increase your revenues this way.
As you can see here, I have some experience with cuckolding and even more experience with the web (professionally) – please feel welcome to discuss your options with me.
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petitemistress
Thank you for your response. I’ll start first by clearing the air in using the word trysts. I use that vs. dating as I’m not really dating anyone guy. I like to meet them someplace quite for more or less a interview. If they are who they say they are and I’m comfortable with them I’ll take our date up to the next level of a long dinner type evening. If that gose well I’ll add them to my book of possible pleasure givers and move on to the next. Only a very few times have I let down my guard and gone further.
Regardless I inform my husband usually the next day either by phone, text or e-mail of the date and the guy in question. I try to give him the details as best I can and the same with him to me. Since the building and posting of my web-site I’ve come to love everything it has brought me. My husband as been a coach and sometimes a editor of my self taken photos. As you said he wants to share me, but is he really ready to share me, watch me, be there with me?
This is where the problem comes in as I feel I’m ready and I want to be shared by others. I need to find a way to tell my husband and have him part of this experience. I need to be sure he is ready for this and we can enjoy this both together. As to who’s the Dom in this I guess it’s become me by telling my fans, customers what and when they can see me and the sex acts I’ll do for them.
On the other hand I could say it’s my husband since he’s the one who got me started on internet porn and help build up what I have going today.
So if you can provide any more insite in this sorted mess then bless feel free to do so. As for options what are you offering?
Thank Mary.
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Luvr
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