Wife Writing 2: Revamping Our Relationship

His penis does not enter me, including blowjobs.

I have come to learn that I do have some obligation to my husband. Just not the sort that when he becomes erect, I owe him sexual gratification. All I really owe him is making him erect, and helping him experience not being able to use it. Each second he is erect for me will be a physical confirmation of how much he admires, loves and supports me. But that’s all it is good for. Nothing else.

Him having an erection will be very important, especially because I will increase my nudity around the house as much as possible. It’s a reminder to him that my sexuality is mine, to offer to any one I choose… except him. Hubs will not get naked, however I will gauge things based off time. I will check in with him every 15-20 mins or so to see how hard, and how full his erection is. The fuller his erection and longer he maintains it, the more meaningful it is as an expression of acceptance and intimacy.

If after 15-20 mins he is still erect, then I will pet it a little. If it is still erect another 20 mins after that, then I will touch it, bare, with my hand. And then if it is still erect another 15-20 mins after that, then I will give him a hand-job. But I will only get him up to a certain point. He has 3 mins to reach orgasm, or to get close. If he gets close within the 3 mins, then I will stop, and he can choose whether to finish up somewhere else, or not. We are discussing the possibility of him wearing a condom when I give him a hand-job, that was if he ever cums, it won’t get on me. And then that way, I can even offer to jerk him to completion on some occasions. But I will only give him max 1 hand-job a day, and max 5 hand-jobs a week. However, if at any time during the progression period, he loses his erection, then we start over.

Hubs will be allowed to touch my butt and boobs, but if I feel he is getting too handsy I will cut him off the rest of the day, or week, depending. However, when my bf, or another man is around then hubs is not allowed to touch me at all. Hubs, however, can eat me out as much as he wishes, and then during that time, even if another man is there, he can touch me as much as he wants, until I ask him to stop of course. This is important, because hubs will be eating me out more often when I am with my bf. He will not be cleaning me out, but instead, he will eat me out while I blow my bf, or before I mount my bf.

Kissing, for the most part will be short and sweet, with rare occasions of passionate kissing of the lips. If we are spooning, then he can kiss my neck and ears a little. And the only time I will kiss him passionately with lips is when I am in doggie-style with my bull and hubs just happens to be there, or if he has done a really good job eating me out. We have done this in the past, but I limit it.

We will be able to have one-on-one snuggle time, where I am fully naked, and he can choose to stay clothed, or strip down to his underwear. And on very rare occasions, he can be fully pant-less. We are discussing whether he may be allowed to hump my butt and orgasm from it. But it would only be if he is fully clothed, and would also be a rare occasion. If at any point we are snuggling and it feels as if his penis is trying to make its way inside me, then we are cutting snuggling off for a month.

Hubs will still be allowed to watch and masturbate as much as he wants. Except for occasions when I feel it necessary to have one-on-one time with my bf with no interruptions. I believe one on one is very important.

But all of this just helps affirm that everything I do is centered around me being submissive and freely giving to my bf, while having heavy restrictions. It helps bring about a more natural and meaningful relationship with both my bf and my husband.