Re: Says he is not a cuck, but…

I believe all of us have different kinks that make us tick. We do the things that please us because it is in our control to do so. We live this alternative lifestyle because we enjoy it and it lets us break away from the traditional marriage we all find mundane and allows us to find comfort in our own skin.  In the beginning I felt that portraying the submissive role was only important to me and I was working too hard to bottom from the top as Jennifer just couldn’t understand Her role or my needs.  As i continued to push the issue and the envelope and accepting myself as a submissive, it created routine and expectations of me to the point that She became irritated and pissed if my list of daily tasks were not completed.  As I worked harder to feel the pleasure of serving Her and to bring Her joy by taking away more and more trivial duties that She normally would carry out, She began to embrace Her power in our marriage. She realized the power of leverage knowing that i only feel comfort as a submissive. She realized the power of sexuality in my need for Her attention. She realized the financial leverage because She is the bread winner and i’m the house husband.  As our relationship evolved She has strengthen Her position and is very clear when She is not happy.  It is at this time when I truly submit to Her in order to keep peace in our marriage and prevent upsetting Her. When She is disappointed in me i feel like the scolded puppy as i lay at Her feet. There was a time when Her power made Her uncomfortable, now it is absolute. 

As for the term cuckold, it’s a word we embrace because we both enjoy it and agree to it. As much power as Jennifer knows She has in our marriage, She would never intentionally be cruel to me or make me feel horrible inside. It doesn’t give Her pleasure to see me miserable or in agony. She exercises Her authority on behalf of both of us. She knows what we both need even when our needs expand to new horizons.  She enjoys Her bull because I enjoy Her being with Him. She has me cleanup after Him because She understands i feel the most submissive in that duty which pleases and benefits us both. To us me being a cuckold is surrendering myself to Her and allowing Her to create the lifestyle and sexual atmosphere that is best for us. i’ve given myself to Her because i trust Her and believe in Her to nurture our marriage in this dynamic in order to bring us both happiness.  She cuckolds me because it’s great for our marriage. She keeps me in chastity 1-3 weeks of the month because it’s great for our marriage. She teases and denies me because it’s great for our marriage. She allows me infrequent intercourse because it’s great for our marriage. She implements these directives because She understands i become most submissive and work harder to serve Her and willingly concede to Her decisions.  This is our perfect harmony and is our meaning of being a cuckold couple.