Reply To: My Story (The Road to Acceptance: Where is it heading?)

Thank you Luvr. I appreciate your response and guidance. I never thought about pride in my journey. I was the typical male, cocksure, married, the husband and man of the house, living the dream, as they say. That is until my first wife unknowingly cuckolded me by having sex with another man. It crushed my pride and male ego to think she sought the sexual satisfaction of another man. Who would have thought after getting remarried that I would seek out the very lifestyle that emotionally scarred me and end that marriage. But something awoken in me, whether true sexual desire or the feeling I was not good enough sexually. Was I testing myself or trying to prove I was not good enough satisfy a woman? Was I trying to relive the experience with my first wife but this time knowing of her infidelity and accepting it?
The journey has been hard, for sure, and I am learning about myself every day. But I know I love my wife and I want to see her pleasured. I am doing that right, letting my wife have sexually pleasure? So yes I can see pride as something I should embrace.